al0r..
its me lynnie here~
wo0t.. yestie reached home ad 1.15; g0 jalan rayer lah
until de m0rnin.. whuddeheck! 32 pple sia..tshtsk!
met ad 2..den this grrl named salleha reached ard 3.
wahla0x. im the furst wanx to reach. hurhuhruhrur =) but
shortly after people came c0ming in.
den furst g0 sengkang; g0 shikin h0use..
den g0 t0..hus h0use sia...oh, assakinah and so and so,
den ad riez h0use, i bcame a gd grrl..
{i miss riez&heykal}
khekhekhekhe..prolly c0s they r go0d t0 me yestie..riez
became my partner and heykal carry my bag fer me..which is
so unlike him t0, i n0e.
so ad riez h0use, i served them water! lalalala. s0 go0d
h0rx! den he intr0duced me t0 his m0m&dad..malu seh!
den i t0ld firdaus sumtink.. sumtink. =) the little 
secrets meant to be kept.
den ad wan h0use, cheeky riez menggatal with meeh.he g0
toilet furst, den i g0 toilet.. only t0 find out he is
waiting 0utside, c0s hidir is inside the toilet.
den waiting outside, he ask me j0in him inside the
toilet..hahaharx. sucker! den hidir went out, den i go in
furst den he oso want to go in, so i go out of the toilet.
den wan's dad say the t0ilet haf n0 l0ck!! wakakakaka! den
after he went 0ut, i went in then he lo0k ad me and i
asked him.."nak j0in tak?" den he want t0 g0 in ledy sia.
crazee b0y.
made way t0 exit wan's h0use..den wait f0r wan t0 kluar
the rumah and riez cheekily ask me again.."pakai kan kain
samping ley tk?".. yer yer. i dunn0 h0w the kain werks man.
den najib, shikin, me, riez walk like kids ad the
overheadbridge. we l0cked arms den walked which made me
leave my slippers a metre away. screw u pple.
after that went t0 shazzie h0use, which is 12+.. ad there,
we eat2 and take pictures.. Frida seb0k ajer!! hmrph. lisa
to0k vide0 with hazrel ad najib's hp.. funny sia!! l0ls.
den to0k funny picture with wan.. hahahaKs. and riez tak
abes2 nak cium kaki 0rg. sia0.
den way back, while waiting f0r them t0 exit..and take
lift with me and riez, den ad last, me and riez 0ny inside
the lift. wth!
under bl0ck os0 take pictures.. riez die2 os0 want t0 take
picture with me. posing nak step c0uple seh. aiyo0!!
den theres this pic, which najib partner with shikin, shaz
n in are oready couple and riez partner with meeh.. we
take "couple" pic. den the rest extra behind.. hurhurhurhr.
pple kip interruptin when riez and me want t0 take sol0
pic.
den this riez go put b0th his hands and hugged me lia0x.
luckily heykal said sth, den he just put his hand 0n my
waist. phew~
den went h0me, heykal,hidir,riez,najib,shikin,baba send me
h0me..
den under blk riez mintak maaf pasal tadi terpeluk.. l0ls..
haiz, wat a day. im s0 tired n0w.........dunn0 if can g0
leha h0use an0t but riez and meeh decide t0 wear 0range
kaler. which i dunn0 wear i put the baju kurung. blechs!!

end here~
{astoria*grrl}
-grrl'sl0ve.-

xmayxlynx fell.int0.pits @ Friday, November 19, 2004 11:23 a.m.

togetherAlways:tillDeathDoUsApart

al0r 
may here. x)
hmmm.s0 b0red.
wh0le day stayed at h0me.
i guess i'm g0ing t0 r0t s00n.
damm tml als0 staying ad h0me.
whut dee fuck.
but thursday g0ing t0 WWW with ebel and jlynn. yeah
t0day w0ke up at 1300.yawn.
but still feeling g0d damm tired.
dunn0 why. mayb bc0z ytd i sh0uld sleep.
i t0ss and turn 0n the bed fr0m 1 t0 3.
den finally ard 3.15 i manage t0 sleep.
phew, whut a night.
den when i w0ke up. i saw darr's msg.
den we quarelled abt s0mthing.
aiyah. anyway, we ged baq .x)
haha.k la. i st0p here.
cia0z.

{santeraina*grrl}

xmayxlynx fell.int0.pits @ Tuesday, November 16, 2004 08:14 p.m.

x/starlightstarbrightfirststariseetonight...whuddeheck.

al0r..
its me lynnie here.
archellie malas nak update.. bud whudde hell.

went to tamp..this r the things i wanna buy fer sch 2005!!
!jackpurcell white shoe
!black converse sch bag
!white converse pencil box
!converse sockss
!wallet (l0ls.i NEED one..money all over sia)
okay, whudever it is, gonna be converse bebeh.

lalalala..
g0rt this boy.
crazyy..
suddenly come up to me,
ask me "hey, nak pergi manerr?"
shi00 cute sia.
wth. i did n0t layan!
den..
on the way back, g0t tis chinese guy..
came up to me to donate f0r this whudever thing,
shi00 cute sia!! budden nvr d0nate lah
den teringat ab0ut the time when this indian2 man ask me t0 d0nate ad orchard..
dat tyme waiting f0r that bastard t0 arrive, back fr0m sch.
den i d0nate den he said t0 his colleague,
"i t0ld u all pretty ladies are kind.."
hahahar! whudde hell.
ok, dunn0 whud t0 update.
i miss darlingg al0t sey t0day.

nemind.
end here.

lynnie101
lynxfadh

xmayxlynx fell.int0.pits @ Tuesday, November 16, 2004 03:28 p.m.

MayOurLoveBeEternity*

al0r,
may baq t0 update.x)
hmmm.jus gawt h0me.
justie when t0 the p0nd near my h0use.
went fishing with l0ts 0f HUMAN.l0ls
i mean frens larz.
g0rt azim,ben,brina,khidir,louis,asaph,kenneth,le0n.
fun shi0. first time fish. x)
guess whut even th0ugh i'm a sh0rttie.
i still managed t0 swingg dee bait and weight t00 a dist.
wwhen i saw the bait and weight flying thru air.
i g0 w00h00.l0ls. i very kental right?
dats me.
den azim,brina and me.cycle t0 central{7-11}
buy rokok and s0me switts. x)
den cycle baq.we passed lyn h0use
actually wanna sh0utt her name.
but its kinda latee and i scare she's n0t h0me.s0 nv later paiseh sia. if pple sh0ut t0 c0r me shut up!
l0lssss.x)
den went baq t0 c0ntiune fish.
den 10mins later they c0mplain hungry!.
waulau lei.lyk pigges norhs.
s0 brina and me went t0 d0wn t0wn.{cheers}
actually cant cycle in want.security will sc0ld
but we tw0 jus punkr0cck. x)
br0ught a beeg b0ttle 0f spirit-icee,l0ts 0f kit-kat,
and a strawberryy chezzy cake.Yummpy.
eat eat eat.finsh den i g0 layan the fishing r0d.
muahahah.x). but still n0 fish lei.
S0 sadenning. x(.
den ar0und 11.35 i went h0me lia0s.
kinda tired.anyway th0se peepos g0ing h0me ard 12
yeah.c0z ben gusi tml need t0 work.x).
anyway t0dae darlingg called.
fuck! i miss him v0ice. i went w00h00.
c0z he n0t angry with me anym0re.and called me!.
den we chatt.after dat heard the fire alarm.
guess whut his sch00l 0n fire!!! l0ls.
den he dun wan put d00wn.
he t0ld he fren he die inside the building sua.
den i say.g0 lazy dar.
he said but but,i wanna t0k t0 my sweetheart.
den i say.
stupid b0y,u die i will cry la.den cant see y0u.
GO NOWWWW!.haha
den he listen and said he will msg me.
s0 siwtt lei him.muacksss l0ve u so muchiee.
i jus dun0 why.
the feeling f0r him is s0 un-explainable.
s0 magical.ged it?
nah i think lyn{twiny} n0e whut i mean.
heyy.it latee.
i think i shall end here. x)
selemat hari raya t0 all the malays. x)
buy byee. cia0z.

{santeriana*grrl}
as everyday passes;i'll l0ve euu m0re den ever
dar as l0ng as e 0cean t0uches e sand. my l0ve f0r u will never end.
{xmayxrhy0}

xmayxlynx fell.int0.pits @ Sunday, November 14, 2004 11:49 p.m.

x/YouDunnoWhutItsLikeToBeLikeMeeh

al0r..
its me Lynnie
s0 justie m0rning.. did h0usech0res/hari rayer preparationns..
afterno0n, went t0 meet darlingg ad city hall..ad 3.30; and i gaf him false inf0 of wher t0 meet. l0lies. s0rry lah!
den pr0ceed t0 esp; th0t wan t0 buy 2005 calendar uh. but tk jadi..so decided t0 check 0ut the new ro0ft0p which is still the same t0 meeh.
the last tyme they put on noticeboard with graphics, it was so.. W0W!!!..padahal2.
s0 darlingg is obsessed with himself and mai digicam..s0 i let him suit himself while i jus rilek2; lie 0n his sh0ulderss.
den we went int0 this staircase..den wan t0 g0 0ut, realized g0t n0 do0rkn0b! l0lies! s0 terpakse ler turun till tingkat 1. k0l0t sia!
darlingg g0t me a b0x 0f ferrero r0cher; and i screamed ad my cuzzin when he to0k 0ne ch0c with0ut asking my permission.
i dun care if its malam rayer 0r whud. he is jus SUCKFUCKS!!
neho0s,THANKS darlingg maling! mwahhx.
den drenched in rain, which darlingg h0pes f0r sth else. "s0mething c0ld must stick t0 sumthink warm." yer yer!
yeyer 0rh ony!den to0k train back t0 pasir ris..he send me h0me. den inside bus was nth unusual. except he been staring ad me f0r whudever reas0n; ony t0 find 0ut he want stamps fr0m me.
we played THE game justie. and im go0d. i w0n!! l0lies. he gif in t0 me larhs.
den went h0me, dinch ged lecture that much. thankss.
after a nice,nice&nice breakfast..m0m decided t0 g0 t0 sg exp0, the john little sale.
i was a l0st kid there f0r a wh0le h0ur!! =(( m0m left me dunn0 g0 wher..she lo0k f0r me i lo0k f0r her os0. blueks.
i l0ve my m0m.
den saw her ad cashier.. luckily she haben pay!
s0 i b0ght this stuffs..ahakx. just weeks ag0 i went sh0pping ad metr0.

stuffs i b0te__*
1 plain pink shirt
1 plain white shirt
1 plain black shirt
1 plain black tanktop
1 ZA foundation
1 lo0se powder
1 orange-br0wn blusher
1 liquid eyeliner
1 waterpro0f mascara

hehs.
im sh0 happy..
elab0rate ab0ut this 2 guys tmr.. suckersssss.

end here~
Lynnie101
<333m0m!!

xmayxlynx fell.int0.pits @ Sunday, November 14, 2004 01:02 a.m.

ilu.dar>333333*

hal0,
its may here baq to update.
sigh. my day is aint getting better any
and wher dar?
he use to be my cherring mate.
always dere for me no matter whut.
cheer me up,help me resl0ve pr0blem dat i can meet up with
dere to give me the warmth hugs dat i c0uld ever have,
huging me tight and neva ever thought of letting me g0.
n0w is not in sign ar0und me.
he's in aust,having fun and stress.
i just dunn0 why,
i can sense,i'm now very tired.
i jus wann him to come baq
i jus wan him to be dere f0r me.
i jus wan him too care f0r me.
in past im game f0r it.
n0w i duno think i can make it.
i'm too tired. 
i have no more strenght in me to carry on.
i'm too tired too love.
coz i hate it when he dun trust me,
i hate it when he starts suspecting me.
do u guys now how hurt is it.
when u trust a guy whole heartedly,yet in return
behind u or infront, he shows u or tell u that he cant
trust u bc0z 0f some past ,
or something he's best pal have said
or mayb..whut ever so lar.
its so heart-breaking.
u guys will neva how it feels.
ged it? guys are guys.
god is kinda un-fair.
dat day i chatted with him.
he asked me,whut u wan for ur burfdae darlinn?
i wan mp3,ipod,hp.blah blah.
den i paused.
and said.nah actually. 
all i wan is u too be here celebrating my burfdae with me
and he said, i'm sorry but i cant. u know dat ryte.
i could heard my heart shattered into millions pieces.
i knew the ans will be this.
and guess whut he think i would lyk ben baq.
coz i' hav been mixing with him dis few days.
yes i have,but why.coz i know dar lyks guitar.
and i asked ben to teach me.
and i ben asked me follow him to change guitar string.
yet he's kind of piss off.
ben is passing me that guitar.
i wan it so i have to go ryte?
why cant he jus understand.
he's dis-trusting me.
i'm heart broken.
i wunt lyk ben baq. ged it,
if not in the first place i wuld have choose ben
instead of him.
and whut now.
he didnt msged me the whole entire day..
till i msged him saying i would be in m'sia
wont be able to chatted with him.
guess whut he's excuse for not msging me.
i tout u was having fun going out with 
ben and ur chalet thing.
hais.
i reali dunno.
i'm too tired now.
too tired to think.
i dun even dare to think if we could pass the 2yrs.
now i'm jus hoping to Prove him WRONG!.
and l0oking forward for him to be baq.
and go m'sia holiday for 2 days with him.
i'm tired i guess.i need to rest this time.
ciaoz.

may signing off~
xmayxrhyox
can we pass this test together hand in hand?
i heard my heart secretly shatteredinto pieces.shhhs!
ilu.darlingg>333333 till eternity if only i could.

xmayxlynx fell.int0.pits @ Friday, November 12, 2004 11:07 p.m.

x/WhoaStayWithMe

al0r..
its me, Lynnie!
seems that MS is nawt feeling go0d.
haven had the chance t0 ask her whyy..
s0 justie i went s0mewher; with my sec0nd partner.
yes,im a tw0-timer! l0ls.
jackass, im s0 n0t 0ne. went with my cuzzin..
t0 buy s0mething..and ended up breaking fast in the bus.
BESOK LAST DAY PUASE! eeyeahooos!!
happy 0ne m0ntie darlingg
lalala, darlingg g0 sh0pping with0ut me.
wth! nemind. i dun feel lyk g0ing 0ut either.
i wanna watch the incredibles&shutter.
but of course, shutter c0me furst.
=D
g0ing t0 watch it 0n 18/19. l0lies. i cand wait.
i g0t n0 mo0d n0w. i dunn0 whyy
i dun feel like chatting with darlingg n0w.
been giving him one w0rd answers.. wth.
t0m0l0.., must wipe chairs and ph0t0 frames.
lermak, lame ah!
justie rearranged my ro0m p0sition.. back t0 square 1. i jus l0ve the p0sition.
i hate my cuzzins larh, evrytime clean, later messy again.
they think whud? this 0ne their h0use issit. fo0k them la.
the 0ther ro0m i clean ledy den messy again. i give up sia. i tell my m0m 0ready.. she supp0rt me lia0x.
their baju/jeans behind my do0r.. wah! until the do0r cann0t cl0se sia!
den their unif0rms, used cl0thes all evrywhere..then the smell.. wahlia0xwey!
enter my ro0m ajer can smell si0t. such turn off. if only they r n0t here, i c0uld haf that ro0m all t0 myself!!
n0w i nid t0 bersabar ony. fo0k.
i seriously cann0t tahan seyy. i keep bro0ding ab0ut th0se little stuffs that they do which im n0t used t0 when its 0nly me and my sister in this ro0m.
th0se little things like lying on the fl0or.. s0metimes its them which makes me see as if my ro0m is in a mess.. padahal2..
and n0w, evrytime i want t0 clean my ro0m.. i nid t0 wait until friday.
c0s it is 0nly day i haf this ro0m to myself. this h0use jus like it used t0 be.
and sadly, its 0nly until ab0ut 2.. and they will all cum back.
i had a dream.
darlingg is playing timer.
i dunn0 la, the last time i dreamt was the fauzee guy having 4 0ther grrls and damnnit, it is true.
im d0ne with this p0st.
and im g0ing t0 ged twinsy a prezzie so0n,
as so0n as i ged s0me bucks.
weeeee~!
alth0 her bdae is still l0ng l0ng away.
0h yeahs, heres my hari rayer wishlist..

wisH*List
!mp3
!digicam batteries(recharges)
!Nokia8210 (i miss y0u!!)
!MovieTixs (f0r tw0 m0vies)
!skirts (againnn..)

h0pefully en0ugh. nemind.. bdae ard the c0rner os0. l0lies!!

end here~
Lynnie101
twinssyLurve. m/

xmayxlynx fell.int0.pits @ Friday, November 12, 2004 10:22 p.m.

FUCK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I HATEEE MY SIS!!! SHE'S A BIATCH!. I HATE HER. WISH THAT SHE IS BETTER OFF DEAD!!!!. SHE SLAP ME,SHE SCARTCH ME!! SHE BOX ME,SHE HIT MY SPINE. SHE KICK ME IN MY STOMACH,SHE KICK MY NECK. SHE EVEN USE THE PEN KNIFE AND CUT ME.!!!.FUCK HER.! SHE EVEN HIT MY MOTHER! SHE BIATCH. IS SHE STILL HUMAN? HIT HER OWN MOTHER? FUCK HER.! DAMMM. {santeriana grrl} xmayx

xmayxlynx fell.int0.pits @ Friday, November 12, 2004 01:47 p.m.

x/DunPromiseMeNetinkYouAreJustADustInMyLife

s0 justie my MSN is being a bitch. gets 0n my nerve man. stupid c0usin. i wished i vulgared her justie. wth. darlingg os0 anader 0ne. isnt there any c0nnecti0n 0f our hearts? l0ls d0n he n0es im like s0 blurgh here, desperately wanting t0 ged int0 msn till i burst int0 tears? why dinch he call me t0 n0e why i g0 0ffline? why dinch he call me in the day? why did he talk t0 me in a rush? wth. dun promise me netink.. d0nt.

Lynnie101

xmayxlynx fell.int0.pits @ Thursday, November 11, 2004 11:13 p.m.

NuthingCanPartUs;NortEvenDeath*

al0ha,
its may here.
*yawn* kinda tired but just culd nort sleep
so i decided to blogg yah.
gawd. still gort 35 days bef0re i can see darlingg.
he will be c0ming baq 0n de 16dec.
till 23 dec and he'll be flyingg off again. 
hais. we are g0ing t0 make use the 1week
darlingg,me,abu and brina planned t0 g0 malaysia sh0pping
fer abt tw0 days. x). so happy. 1 first time g0 0versea
with my stead. m0re 0ver its darlingg.Excited.
hais,but 0ur 2nd m0nth and my burfdae
he w0nt be spending it with me.
neva mind,brina will be spending my burdae with me.
i l0ve brina l0ts. burfdae treat me things.
christmas blanga me re-b0nding. x)
and mayb i will be g0ing t0 genting with my family.
intend t0 buy levis jeans fr0m dere.
c0z it c0st abt $100RM.
which is lyk $45 in s'p0re.
so freaking cheap cans.
den s'p0re selling fer Sg$100. so ex.
anyway t0dae i went t0 my grandm0ther place.
after dat went t0 bugis, and g0rt a jeans.
den went t0 bed0k giant.
actually wanted t0 g0 exp0.
g0t digi-cam fair.
wanted t0 ged a digi cam fer me. 
but my mummy sleepy. s0 headed h0me
daddy say sat bring me g0 see.mayb buy 1 f0r me.
s0 happy. x).
Miss darlingg so MUCHHHHHH.
so happy dat even though he's in aust.
our relati0nship still mantain the same.
k i shall end here.
meeting ben gusi.

{santeriana*grrl 101}
xMayxRhyox
Our l0ve will nv end.

xmayxlynx fell.int0.pits @ Thursday, November 11, 2004 06:48 p.m.

x/LYNXFADH is g0ing t0 last f0rever i tell y0u.

0key, its me Lynnie.
yestie was a great great day!
bc0s i ged t0 meet darlingg&s0 did my 0ther 2 c0usin.
and os0, i g0t my l0ng waited digi-cam!! l0ls. im s0 happy.
im turnin int0 a 100% camwh0re.
s0 yestie, this s0unds lame but true.
its the furst tyme i break-fast/g0 geylang with a b0yf. l0lies.
and im happy i c0uld stay 0ut late yestie..; reached h0me ad ab0ut 11+
0kay, yestie sucked abit bc0s 0f the b0ys wh0 simply n0 shame..
h0w can they smile ad me when im clinging 0n t0 my b0yf. wth.
i haf a back-view pic taken with darlingg. which my cuzzin to0k.
and there was the 24-hr time stupidity& six sticks. jackass uh.
the bye-bye part suck f0r me c0s it was to0 sh0rt. it was just a sharp bye.
nemind, g0t my cuzzins with me. s0 ala dr0pped ad tamp and left me with alyn.
and we to0k pics in the mrt, v0id deck, bus. just everywhere.
i tink my sis is jeal0us; c0s she find fault with me yestie. bc0s 0f the digicam.
she kept pissing her shyts 0n me n the digicam. but wth, i still win neways.
t0ld m0m this m0rning abt sahur den i think she backup meeh. l0ls.
she jus t0ld me t0 ign0re my sister, since i 0ready n0e she is like THAT. whud is the THAT eh? 0bvi0us-stricken jeal0usy?
s0, my cuzzin is g0nna implicate V0n-dutch. fuck him sey~ von dutch is s0 "expl0ited".
he and ten 0ther frends g0 buy the tee yestie. den they g0nna damage it.
i nearly th0t he was g0ing t0 be a mat then.
well, he d0es lo0k like 0ne. hurhurhurhur. step fierce 0ny my cuzzin.
t0m0rr0w we r turning 0ne m0ntie. l0ls.

calendaR*November
12 * we just turned 0ne m0ntie.
14 * Hari Rayer Puase! yey~
16 * g0 sch buy bo0ks
18 * g0 watch 'The Incredibles' h0pefully
20 * Salleha's 0pen h0use h0pefully with him

calendaR*December
8 * i'll turn 15!
l0lies.

end here~
{astoria*grrl}
<3Y0ualways

xmayxlynx fell.int0.pits @ Thursday, November 11, 2004 04:16 p.m.

Poem:remember me By:May*

Don't forget me
I don't wanna be the dust you hold in your hand
Keep me close
When I'm gone
Don't let me disappear into the sand

I want you to think of me
I reached for you once
The stars held my hand
I think of you often
Do you still remember me?

I laughed
I cried
I knew it must end
Someday I must die
Remember me then

Place your rusting flowers
On my grave
Remember the days that are retreating
In you I forgave

Save me
I'm vanishing
I reach out for your hand
As the darkness comes
It swallows me whole
I am all alone

As I become the silence
I feel your tears fall on my porcelin cheeks
I think to myself how beautiful life is and
How darkness is such a relief

Don't let the clouds darken your eyes
I know you loved me one time
I'll be back again someday
When the wind whispers in your ear
You'll know I'm there
That I'm near

I'll say your name
You'll know it's me
We were ripped apart
But that's just destiny

Let me see you smile one last time
In you I survive
When you think of me
I am alive

Remember me
Think of me now
And I'll remain yours forever.

xmayxlynx fell.int0.pits @ Wednesday, November 10, 2004 02:32 p.m.

FactsAbtLovee*

Love is when you wake up, he is already in your mind... 
Love is when you lost your heart, he is all that you can find.  Love is when you want to be the one to dry his tears.. 
Love is when you see the truth in every one of his lies... 
Love is when you want to listen to all his whims and woes.  Love is when you want him to care about everywhere he goes. Love is when he calls you, your heart goes a flutter... Love is when you see him "I love him.." you silently stutter. Love is when you tell the world that you love him so.
Love is when you've told the world... but he doesn't know
Love is when you know you'll still love him when he's lost his hair...
Love is when your eyes light up when you see him there...
Love is also when you hear your heart breaks when he held another girl's hand.
Love is when you crumbled as you hear them say that it will last forever.
Love is when you cry inside yet smile outside when they say hi to you.
Love is when you held your breath and said "How do you do?"
Love is when you let him go... you know he is happy now.
Love is when you know you'll get over him somehow.
Love is when his happiness is what matters to you.
Love is when you allow him to love her... and not love you true.
Love is when you'll still love him... and still.. he'll never know.. Love is when you'll swallow the pain and slowly let go... Yet... love is a funny thing....
Love is when you smile when you hear that it's him and her no more..
Love is when you hear him sent her through the door...
Love is when you try to bump in to him again...
Love is when he'll say hi to you and there is no more pain.
Love is suddenly real love when he says he loves you too...
Love is suddenly real love when his life revolves around you.
Love is suddenly real love when he's always loved you but he didn't dare.
Love is suddenly real love when he's always loved you but thought you didn't care...
Love is suddenly real love when now it's all coming true
Love is suddenly real love when you love him and he loves you...
Love is suddenly real love when now your life is nearly complete.
Love is suddenly real love when everyday... it's him you meet.
Love is suddenly real love when your friends accept him too.
Love is suddenly real love when you can have time for them and him and you.
Love is a many splendoured thing... and a really complex feeling.
So when you love someone... just tell him... or her...
You'll never know how it would turn out to be... one way or another.
Tell him before he's gone... tell her before she's taken...
Confess... confess... what's there to lose...
When pride and ego's forsaken.
You might never know... he might love you too
She or He, might feel the same way for you...

xmayxlynx fell.int0.pits @ Wednesday, November 10, 2004 02:30 p.m.

HappyInDatOutside;LonelyInDatInside*

al0ha,
its may x)
to mai: lyn{my twiny} is aint ugly,
there's is not ugly grrl in the world.
that is only lazy grrl.
they are jus too lazy to doll them self up.
So there is no UGLY GRRL.
10mins ag0 jus gawt h0me.
m0rning w0ke up and played c00m fer 2 hr.
send ben all the band vide0 dat i had take.
check mail and friendster.
after that i wr0te a c0mp0.
t0 impr0ve my language.
used s0me expressi0n in it.
den went back t0 c0m.
chated with ben fer 30 mins.
den went t0 take bath.
d0ll a |i|
den went t0 meet brina.
t00k a train t0 BUGIS.
we went t0 f00d juncti0n to makan first
c0z brina c0mplain say hungry.
den after eating headed to bugis village.
br0ught a mini skirt.
actually wanna buy jeans.
But darlingg insisted in buying skirt
c0z he L0VES skirts.
esp th0se mirc0-mini wan,
whut to d0.0ver in aust.
the wh0le street is filled with grrls
wearing mirc0-mini skirts.
so i c0mpr0mise.
den we walked a |i| saw a jeans s0000 nice can.
the cutting damm f00king p0wer man
wanna buy.but n0t enuff m0ney.
s0 saw a cigarette casing very nice.
s0 n0t enuff m0ney.
wat the fuck la.
arghsssss!.
den went t0 dewan n0rhx,
ben teach me play guitar..
until 9 den i g0 wait f0r bus,
i t00k ben's guitar h0me!
yeah can practise.
k i wann g0 practise already.
miss ma darlingg so much. muackss*
cia0z. x)


{santeriana*grrl 101}

Darlingg;n0thing g0nna change my l0ve f0r euu;

xMayxRhyox

xmayxlynx fell.int0.pits @ Tuesday, November 9, 2004 10:05 p.m.

x/HowManyHeartsHaveIBroke?

tagb0ard.
t0 mai: wellies..ad least my b0yf d0esnt think that way; and thats the 0nly thing that matters t0 me..n0t ur opini0n c0s i dunn0 u and u dunn0 me to0. thx f0r that neways. TC
{Lynnie*101}

xmayxlynx fell.int0.pits @ Tuesday, November 9, 2004 08:42 p.m.

FriendsOfTheEnemy*

NO USE FOR A NAME LYRICS

"Friends Of The Enemy"

lost in confusion
not knowing which way to return
to the person you know
this trepidation makes you
take it out on someone else
you forever
everybody wins
i don't think so

what would the worst thing be if you
took the wheel and you lost control
no one is safe inside your safety zone
don't understand but i hear what you're saying
the repetition of a lonely life
somebody tell me why the
heart is waging war against the
friends of the enemy of your mind

not your opinion
sounds like you learn it from a show
it appears you have lost
so sick of marching in your lonliness parade
stay together underneath a giant tidal wave

what would the worst thing be if you
took the wheel and you lost control
no one is safe inside your safety zone
don't understand but i hear what you're saying
the repetition of a lonely life
somebody tell me why the
heart is waging war against the
friends of the enemy of your mind

your imatated
ordinary life

its when that you can't break free can you
take a chance as you let it go
happy without the words you'll never know
no way to lose when your mimicking you're paying
a no decision forbidden home
no one is safe inside your safety zone
don't understand but i hear what you're saying
the repetition of a lonely life
no one is safe inside your safety zone
don't understand but i hear what you're saying
the repetition of a lonely soul
no one is safe inside your zone


[Thanks to xmayszex@hotmail.com for these lyrics]

xmayxlynx fell.int0.pits @ Tuesday, November 9, 2004 03:24 p.m.

HappyBurfdayDarr*

HAPPY 17TH BURFDAY MY DARLINGG! MUACKSS!
the weather is so fucking hot.grrr!.
gotta bath and ged ready to go tution
bye peeps.
update tml.coz i wunt be home today. x)

{santeriana*grrl 101}
happybdae my darlingg
xMayxRhyox

xmayxlynx fell.int0.pits @ Sunday, November 7, 2004 04:30 p.m.

x/ItsAToughRoadBabyJustLetItGo

al0r, lynnie here&im lazy to space out this post.
//yestie*
went to geylang.. anader day ad there; loads of M&Ms and theres never a lack of cute guys. l0ls. s0rry darlingg!fr0m breakfast 0nwards.. i eat n0n st0p. geylang sucks ah, esp the grrls hu like t0 stare f0r n0 reas0n and the mats hu tried t0 gatal2.. piss 0n u. s0me even haf grrlfren.
tmr is m0nday..meaning darlingg is g0ing t0 werk, ITP.. uwekk. sad f0r him& f0r me. hari rayer os0 darlingg must werk. wtf. po0r himm. but i h0pe his kind, sweet, cutesy grrlfren can haf dinner with him after hari rayer, that is. s0 after hari raye, planned t0 g0 t0 se0ul garden, which is g0ing t0 be my treat. hehs. his grrlf is s0 s0 kind!! and t0 the m0vies, which is g0ing t0 be his treat.. hehs. my boyf is s0 s0 nice!! that will be a one day plan. and h0pefully after his ITP, can g0 t0 the zo0, which i haf been bugging him f0r..and g0 t0 the beach. blueks. im s0 lo0king f0rward t0 the BRIGHT future of US.
hmmx, i miss darlingg sey. i miss his smell. wellie, cont later. gd lucks darlingg! mwahhx!

{astoria*grrl}
<3333darlingg

xmayxlynx fell.int0.pits @ Sunday, November 7, 2004 01:41 p.m.

x/SadSadSituation

went to darlingg blog justie, f0und out that his bl0g is 0nly linked t0 grrls. me(his GF), den his 2nd GF, his scandal, and his lust-partner. w0key, im bad. and IT is back. guess u n0e whud it is.
lynnie

xmayxlynx fell.int0.pits @ Saturday, November 6, 2004 01:05 p.m.

x/IMissYouMoreThanIDidYesterday

al0r..
its me Lynnie here~

//yestie*
went t0 MS c0nd0 t0 ged darlingg MCR cd..
very p0or thing g0t hi-fever.
tshtskk! den me and my c0usin expl0re the c0nd0 f0r awhile..heheheks.
den pr0ceed t0 tampines, i was early s0 wen t0 TM f0r awhile g0t this mats ask my n0mber.. wtf. mats summ0re.
im an anti-social saggitarian
met darlingg ad 1.30..den went r0unding2 ad tamp.
c0s he NEVER been t0 tamp b4; s0 whudde hell.
den went t0 century&saw din0. with his grrlfren..chinese seyy
den went t0 watch shark tale! l0lies! it is cute and farnie but it seems sh0rt. sh0uld extend the st0ryline!
after that, which ended ad ar0und 5..went h0me. darlingg send me h0me.. until pasir ris.
even th0 he lives ad bo0n lay. tshtsk. den ad busst0p..he want t0 g0 sh0p buy fo0d.. n0 shame. tak p0se. hehs.
den sat ad staircase and HE eat whudever be b0ught.
planned t0 meet 0n saturday..den evrything was 0key ledy
suddenly i remembered sunday dah hari rayer, s0 0bviously cann0t meet him. den..its like s0 shucks.
he is s0 sad he feel like breaking d0wn.
awwwwwww!!
s0 l0ike, next tw0 weeks den can see him.
0r w0rse.. next 3 weeks?? go0dness meeh. whud is the werld c0ming t0. haiyah.
friday is a special day.
8 december is 0s0 a special dayy..
den he asked me whud i want 0n my bdae, i name him all, digi cam, mp3, ngage QD, xbox, gameboy advance..
den s0mewher inside my heart i nid t0 say this, but i cand seem t0 let it 0ut 0f my m0uth..: "i 0ny want y0u t0 be there"
c0s he g0t the ITP attachment. and it is until 0ver my bdae..just h0pe my cuzzin g0t s0me spare time t0 celebrate with me, which she did evry year!!
i dun think i can g0 0ut next week..nemind itsh 0key la..
i w0uld hang my tears dry in this h0use.. hmmmx.
hahaks, yestie he dun wan t0 let g0 0f my hand ad busst0p but i rili g0t t0 g0 s0 i pull my hand awayy.. haiyah!
he smell s0 nice! l0ls. i l0ike his smell.. wo0h0o.
nemind..this is a HEALTHY relationship
but it seem like.. we havent quarelled. hahahaks. nemind. trying best t0 understand each 0therrr. neho0s, there is n0thing f0r us t0 quarell ab0ut.
theres n0 ex cases t0 quarell, n0 flirtitious cases t0 quarell(cos we b0th D0NT flirt) & 0ther parties cases.
l0ike, ged s0me sense.. build a str0ng f0undation 0f trust&c0mmitment during the first/sec0nd m0nth..den if the furst and sec0nd m0nth kip 0n quarelling, whud de heck, h0w t0 stay till 26?? l0ls!
yestie g0t this bride studi0..and i p0inted it 0ut t0 him. yeshy. when i am 26. c0s n0b0di likes you when u r 23.
whudever it is, i g0t t0 ged g0ing.. lo0king f0rward t0 the future 0f US.

{astoria*grrl}
<333MrAstoria

xmayxlynx fell.int0.pits @ Saturday, November 6, 2004 12:03 p.m.

I can feel it i can taste it x) *

al0ha x)
its may.
damm its raining s0 heavy 0utside.
actually intend t0 g0 cycling with punkSis.
guess its cancel yah
Its raining and i missing s0me0ne.al0ts al0ts.
and the special s0me0ne wh0 is missed by me
is n0 0ther den my percious darlingg. x) its lyk duh.
l0ls lame freako,
Phew! finally my fever have g0ne d0wn a|i| yeah.
its a gre8t achievment,
coz its have been 38plus since mon till ytd night
h0pefully i rec0ver yeah,
c0z tml g0t jam, and i'l be singing letters t0 y0u.
Mayb 0nli.see if i'm okey. l0ls. x)
anyway last jam,
haikal sang letters t0 y0u and its gre8t man.
he's dudak dewan pig x)
i miss him!
this time i aint j0king anym0re,
i'm seri0usly afraid 0f l0sing him.
ytd i had a dream,
there's me,darlingg and an0ther grrl inside de dream.
i cant reali remember everything 
i only can remember a pr0ti0n
"Dream
darlingg,me and this grrl is inside a car{dunno whut car}
den darlingg t0ld me he dun l0ve me anym0re
he den *kiss* that grrl infr0nt 0f me.

i felt s0 hurt.its lyk so real u n0e
i den suddenly wake,guess whut i found cry on my cheeks
gawd, is g0d trying t0 tell me something through 
the dream? h0pe n0t. hais
he 5mins ag0 msged me,
saying thathe dream 0f s0mething,
will tell me later when he call me.
*scream* so happy. will be talking t0 him again
ar0und usual time. yeah! x)
Feeling s0 c0ld n0w. gawd. i need darlingg hugss.
darlingg darlingg darlingg i need euu.
i miss euu badlyy. i have n0t seen darlingg fer 1week.
1m0nth t0 me use t0 be a very sh0rt peri0d.
n0w it seems t0 be a very very l0ngg peri0d t0 me.
gawd,save me and darlingg pls?* 
i shall end here. time fer medicati0n.

{santeriana*grrl 101}
i can nv find my heart again:cause u have st0len it darlingg
x2709-till enternityx

xmayxlynx fell.int0.pits @ Friday, November 5, 2004 01:49 p.m.

JusMarried*

heyy.
see the cerf bel0w?
darlingg and me de. x)

xmayxlynx fell.int0.pits @ Thursday, November 4, 2004 10:44 p.m.

x/ShouldIJustLetYouSlipAwayWithoutABarrier

its me lynnie.
evrything is a bitch now, MSN&DAD.
fuck y0u dad.
i was just a lil late f0r h0me the other day and i g0t gr0unded f0r 2 weeks bc0s of that.
dun bullshit la, be m0re reas0nable. even m0m n0t like y0u. fucker.
MSN im s0 g0ing t0 screw y0u up! u maniac. whud tr0ublesho0t shit u need?! my internet c0nnecti0n is always 0kay.
and dat s0meone: can y0u n0t g0 int0 my msn while im 0nline? it piss me 0ff.
i havent been 0ut 0f this h0me f0r tw0 days. n0t even t0 the v0id deck and sh0ps c0s im GR0UNDED. i cant even step 0ut 0f this h0use. WHUD THE FUCK.
urgh. im s0 b0red t0 tears im crying n0w. i can ged crazy 0ne day..i g0t n0thing else t0 d0.. ive d0ne all that i needed t0 d0. TV is such a b0re..i cant even g0 t0 my c0usin h0use t0 take s0me new VCDs..den whud the hell am i supp0sed t0 d0?
MTV is PURE B0RING!! they keep repeating the same 0ld clips.. ive seen GC new clips f0r hundred time..Simple plan to0.. blink 182.. usher is evrywher in MTV.. ashlee simps0n is up every h0ur.. and theres this blonde.. hu is 0ver the tv.. and theres the christina aguilera&missy elliot..and the sum 41 we're all t0 blame.. newlyweds is a b0re.. ro0m raiders is getting predictable.. bah. MTV! URE SO BORING.
if 0nly theres the 24hrs wrestling.. like it used t0 years back den.. i will be s0 interested.
mama cakap nak pergi kedai barang-barang seh. abey skrg tgh tidur.. k0l 5 i must wake her up. whud ony la.
I HATE MY DAD. MSN. MTV AND EVERYTHING THAT GOES WITH IT.

{astoria*grrl}
BetterOffdea D

xmayxlynx fell.int0.pits @ Thursday, November 4, 2004 04:13 p.m.

LoveHimMoreDenWerdsCanSay*

al0r
its may.
jus finish chatting with darlingg.
*scream* i was 0nly chatting with him f0r merely 30mins
and MUM asked me t0 put d0wn
arghhhhss. angry and sad.
s0 happy,at last i can hear his v0ice
*smile with m0uth 0pen* 
darlingg pr0mise t0 c0r me again tml. x)
the moment i haerd his v0ice, 
my fever seems to be fading away somehow.
the pain in my thoart,seems t0 g0ne to.
if 0nly i culd hear his v0ice 24/7,
my illness will be g0ne by then.
h0w g00d can this be?
anyway justt n0w i quarrelled with darlingg
over my past and his past
hate guys t0 dig up my past
whut's g0ne pls let it g0 yah?
nv mind s0me h0w 0r s0. we manage to make things up
And this is a g00d sign.
This is a healthy relati0nship 0key?
it n0rmal f0r c0uples t0 quarrelled. lyn dun u agree?
if c0uples dun quarrelled.den it n0t healthy.
p00r c0uples den.tsk tsk tsk.
i simply miss darlingg.! 
as each day passes,my l0ve fer him grew deeper. x)
hmmm.t0day,dad br0ught me t0 p0lyclinic.
h0ly jesus! the clinic 0pen ad 8.
by the time i reach the clinic its 8.05
and guess whut,there already 40plus pple pending
wth, so sick still need t0 wait.
anyway by the time i finish c0llectin my medicine
its already 10.
dad dr0ve me back h0me
i eat my breakfast,t00k medicine and went t0 bed.
w0ke up ad 2plus.
darlingg msg me,and i sent baq.
but guess whut,he cant recieve it. 
he only can recieve it tml.
want t0 n0e why? c0z the fucking STARHUB sux
peepz wh0 are planning t0 ged new hp,
pls dun sign up with STARHUB x)
den i use my sis hp secretly msged him.kekes.
den he say t0 meet him online.
we chatted and quarrelled ad dee same time x).
after dat i went t0 have my medicati0n b4 
chatting with him again.
den he went 0ffline ad spore 6.30
i had my dinner,and he ph0ne me up.
i guess he must be sleeping n0w.
c0z its 10plus 0ver dere already.
dats all.i shall end here.

{santeriana*grrl 101}
darlingg,ilu!!!dun w0rry tym 'll pr0ve everything

xmayxlynx fell.int0.pits @ Wednesday, November 3, 2004 08:09 p.m.

x/BabyISwear

I swear im going to skin you alive if you cut your hair darlingg. I mean it baby.
{astoria*grrl}
~*~flaydnh*121~*~
just married.(WT)

xmayxlynx fell.int0.pits @ Tuesday, November 2, 2004 09:42 p.m.

Announcement: ThankYou-Note

THANKS to my dearest NIZZY SISTER in explaining ab0ut the "HAMBURGER". IT HELPS ME ALOT.
THANKIEW MY SYS!! 3 CHEERS!

xmayxlynx fell.int0.pits @ Monday, November 1, 2004 09:34 p.m.

x/WelcomeToMyLife

al0r!
its me Lynnie here!
zzz, im b0red. tired. in lurve.
b0ught 2 fishes justie.
s0 cute sia! muackx!
i went t0 darlingg place justie,
pass his mp3 and new batteries c0s left 2 bars 0ny..
den went t0 his 2nd h0me t0 watch "al0ng came polly"
i felt his hands and it is g0wd damn s0ft.
tshtsk. held his hands until my palm is wet.l0ls.
den he sent me h0me, all the way fr0m bo0n lay t0 tampines, t0 my aunt place..
den inside the train, kinda em0. i dunn0 why. den we quarell ab0ut my hair. l0ls. c0s i wanna cut my hair, which i n0e he will be totally against it and sengaje nak kacau&os0 my hair sucks s0 i ask him and insisted 0n it.
hmmx..
i lurve him al0ts.
den justie he say i lurve u int0 my ears.
tshtsk.
den i felt his heartbeats.
wo0w.
i miss him lia0x.
this is a healthy relationship okey.
REMINDER: THIS IS A HEALTHY RELATIONSHIP.

end here~
{astoria*grrl}
darlinggwherRu?

xmayxlynx fell.int0.pits @ Monday, November 1, 2004 08:11 p.m.

TrustMeWh0leheartedly*

al0r
its may!
jus finishing chatting iwth darlingg
0h g0sh i miss him like hell
dunn0 if he's g0ing t0 c0r me t0night an0t.
hais. x(. love him s0 muchhie.
dunch think can chat with him aint m0re these few days
cause dere isnt any f0ne line in dee bl00dy r00m
where he is g0ing t0 spend his 2yrs in.
gawd. whut am i d0ing t0 d0 man.?
he said dat he need t0 find a wirless internet access frest
in order t0 chat with me online.
h0pefully he will be able t0 find 0nee.
ytd he called me thr0ugh his hp.cause he c0uld find dee +
so cutee lei he. h0use ph0ne dunch hab la. mus call 1081
s0mething lyk this i guess.
we chatted fer 0nly abt 20mins i guess.
cause its super duper expensive 0kies.
s0 its better den nuthing. 
atlast i managed t0 have a g00d rest 
after talking t0 him x)
0h, lyn{twinys} i wanna kill u ah.!
nah jus kidding!. x)
damm w0ke up early t0day,
cause wanna g0 sch00l see ma p0sting
damm it.its supp0se t0 be 0ut 0nly 0n dee frest day 0f sch
bl00dy cher call t0day.waste ma precious time.
anyway i make it up with her. yeah.
abit bad yah fer ign0ring her s0 l0ngg. x)
0h gawd, its raining
i'm starting t0 miss HIM
i miss th0se happy and bad time we spent t0gether
i miss th0se r0mantic kisses and hugs dat he use t0 give
i miss th0se love and c0ncern which he use t0 sh0wer 0n me
i mis th0se nice v0ice 0f him
i miss his singing
i miss h0lding his hand tight
i miss seeing his cutee boyish facee
i miss him i miss him
i smiply miss him too much.
damm.!
i h0pe 16dec will arrived quickly so i can see darlingg.
& i 0s0 h0pe his stay will be a l0nger 0ne instead 0f 2daes
i love my BOYFREND TOO MUCH x)
i shall end here. kind 0f tired. 
need t0 catch up with ma sleeps.
Muacks darlingg & twinys i lovee u 2.!

xoxoxo
{santeriana*grl 101}
xMay-hearts-rhyox> always
rhy0>333333333333

xmayxlynx fell.int0.pits @ Monday, November 1, 2004 05:13 p.m.

In My Eyes*

You're graceful, your grace falls, 
down around me in my eyes. 
You're lovely, your love leaves, 
So easily in my eyes. 

Another day left waiting, 
alone in my room with no calls from you. 
So I call you up, but you let me down, 
falling down around everyone except yourself. 

I thought that this would never end, 
things were so clear but they fell through. 
High hopes of problems never failed, 
thinking of the best. 

You're graceful, your grace falls, 
down around me in my eyes. 
You're lovely, your love leaves, 
So easily in my eyes. 

Another day left crying, 
with you in my room with nothing left to do. 
You say that it's not right, you said its over now. 
Stand still annoyed with no one around. 

I thought that this would never end, 
things were so clear but they fell through. 
High hopes of problems never failed, 
thinking of the best. 

You're graceful, your grace falls, 
down around me in my eyes. 
You're lovely, your love leaves, 
So easily in my eyes. 

You're graceful, your grace falls, 
down around me in my eyes. 
You're lovely, your love leaves, 
So easily in my eyes.

xmayxlynx fell.int0.pits @ Monday, November 1, 2004 03:28 p.m.

x/HandleYourScandalBabyy

wo0! al0r.
this is Lynnie.
justie went t0 the metro sale ad sg exp0.
i wear very slack lia0x. fred perry, 3/4 pants(NOT TIGHT2 WAN L0IKE MINAH EH..) & white sandals..
den ad there, wahla0x. s0 many pe0ple siahh.
i b0ught..
*2 sh0rt skirts.
*2 triumph th0ngs
*5 lingerie
*1 winnie de po0h shirt
*1 pink/white p0lka d0t t0p
*1 f0undati0n
guess all this h0w much.
a s0lid $85
g0wddd!! i cant believe i spend that am0unt in 2 hrs.
archellie i can d0 m0re..sandals, m0re skirt..m0re t0ps, m0re makeups and m0re bags! and that elle 3/4 pants and elle sh0rt2 white skirt.
and that w0uld c0st me a s0lid 150/+
thanks go0dness m0m is n0t there..she gave me her POSB cardd and off i g0, sh0pping!
she never say any limit am0unt, s0.. i dinch take advantage 0key!
den inside bus..
wahla0x!! tmr den i tell darlingg.
justie darlingg is ad paya lebar sey, and im ad tanah merah. if 0nly im with my cuzzin 0ny(instead 0f brudder n y0unger cuzzie) and if he is al0ne 0r with s0me frendss, i w0uld rili g0 away t0 paya lebar just t0 see his face.
trust me its true. alth0 t0m0r0e im meeting him, but i rili cann0t tahan sey. I MISS DARLINGG S0 MUCH!!
s0 tmr im wearing my new cl0thes.. hehehehe.i want t0 bl0w his mind off. hahahahaks. i <33333333 y0u al0tt.
g0wd i swear i hate th0ngs. i hate the feeling 0f a string being stucked between my butts. l0ls. im wearing it tmr newayss..
darlingg if u want me t0 g0 t0 ur 2nd h0me tmr.. its 0key c0s i will be there. =) see y0u ad bo0n lay bes0k 0key! dats is, if ur m0m&stepdad n0t ad h0me.
and yeah, i cann0t watch m0vie tmr with y0u c0s i g0t n0 bucks! s0rey. next tyme ar eh, after hari raya kerr.
so0n darlingg is away f0r his ITP, and he said we c0uld meet up m0re 0ften.. yey! im s0 happy.. but,whud if i cann0t g0 0ut. bo0h0o..i lurve y0u s0 much.
ITP is way till my bdae.if he cann0t find any time 0ff den itsh 0key l0rs. =(
0h yah, the incident in the bus, i will tell y0u tmr w0keyy!
i dunn0 whud else t0 say.
just that i miss y0u l0ads and heart y0u m0re than i did yestie.
enter that fadh darlingg.

end here~
{astoria*grrl}
~pink'd~

xmayxlynx fell.int0.pits @ Sunday, October 31, 2004 07:23 p.m.

ImissDarlinggSooMuch*

hiyee.
its Me may.
*yawn* just gawt up.s0 tired
i reached h0me ard 2am in dee m0rning.
let me recall whut i did ytd! asked me t00 acc him see d0c b4 he fly
s0 i w0ke up,helped 0ut alittle with dee h0use ch0res
quickly t00k a bath and rushed t0 meet him
by the time we reached bed0k r0ad it already 12.20
and dee clinic cl0sed at 12.30.
darlingg was making al0t 0f n0ise
keep blamming me.saying its my fault.
and i kip saying its his fault. l0ls
s00 pai seh s0 many pe0ple see lei
luckily 12.30 we reached there.and he's dee last paitent
after visting dee d0c we t00k bus 17 baq t0 his h0use.
i helped him t0 pack his cl0thes and stuff. x).
he's jus lyk a small |i| boyy.whaha.
after packing everything.
he changed and we went baq t0 my h0usee first.
den we walked t0 mrt
but we st00ped at the t0wn park and sm0ke first.
while sm0king,e sang a s0ng fer me.! s0 nice
after dat we wennt d0wn t0 cityhall meet brina and shahrul
shahrul g0t himself a new hair cut! mohawk!
we slack fer awhile den went t0 eat.
after that darlingg went h0me first.
shahrul,brina and me went 0ver t0 HMV first
after that we t00k train t0 airp0rt.
went we reached airp0rt,
my heart and mind filled up with mixed feelings
excited and extremly SAD
darlingg and i went ar0und walked.
den we talked.
then we realise that b0th 0f
0ur heart is beating very fast
after that we went baq t0 j0in dee 0thers
t00k gr0up f0t0!all dee budak dewan
darlingg and i t00k f0t0 t00! x).
after sending him int0 dee departure hall
all budak dewan + ahmad went t0 geylang
we br0ught dindin! and h0ney chicken and burger{special}
den after that we eat 0ur f00d behind
euons mrt stati0n while waitin f0r abu family t0 arrived
den they drived us t0 w00dlands helped t0 m0ve things
after dat abu' father send me and brina h0me.
t0day i w0ke up an watch dvd{13 g0ing 0n to 30}.
g0t 1 part i cry. mayb bc0z i t0ut 0f
darlingg at that p0int 0f time yah
1/2hr later darlingg used his aust no.
and msg me. this is whut i been waiting since ytd x)
s0 happy until i sh0ut.
my sis t0ut i was mad.x).
later he's c0ming 0nline can chat with him!
0h gawd, i miss him lyk crazy
h0w am i g0ing t0 leav w/o him.hais.
i shall end here
i love my BOYFRIEND! no i mean FIANCE!

{santeriana*grrl 101}
MaySze-Hearts-Rhyo
till eternity





shahrul neww hair cutt!




darlingg sideview,t00k it w/0 him kn0wing! s0 cutee! x)



dudak dewan gr0up f0t0. n0t very clear

xmayxlynx fell.int0.pits @ Sunday, October 31, 2004 04:08 p.m.

x/WeGoneTooFarFromPrideToShame

al0r.
its me lynnie..
sth happened justie
i was cooking ad the kitchen..den b4 that was talking to darlingg den suddenly the conversation was off, and darlingg dinch call back. so im kinda sad
den i was sort of dreamy.. den take salt to put to the dish uh, den i dropped the BUCKET of salt. (bedek seh bucket)
den i was dreamyy about darlingg..and salt dropped. i was l0ike shit!! so many salt!
so i wiped, and sweep.. the kitchen.. h0w many tymes? THREE TYMES. still got salt until living room. lmao.
den my cuzzin go inside the kitchen, felt sth on the floor.. i said it was dusty.. den he say like pasir2 loike that.. and left the kitchen.
den he went in again to taste the dish I COOK and he said, "hmm..pasir tk cukop.. letak lebih skit pasir.."
l0ls. BUSTED!
den his lontong is ready on the table..
den go take spoon..
and i see his lontong.. and i put custard!! hahahaha. but abit ony ah. shuld haf put more cos he is watching tv/eat.. den no proper light source.. awwww!
I MISS MY BOYF.

end here~
{astoria*grrl}
~3CFSR~

xmayxlynx fell.int0.pits @ Saturday, October 30, 2004 11:37 p.m.

x/AreYouAfraidOfBeingAlone

I MISS MY BOYF!!
was 0n the verge 0f crying sey tadi..
n0e where? traffic light!
c0s i saw this couple and the guy g0t her hands 0n the grrl's waist.
s0 jeal0us!
darlingg s0 far awayy..
i miss my boyf.
i miss him lots.
darlingg where are youu?

awwwwwwwwwww! darlingg i miss you loads
{astoria*grrl}
imissyou~

xmayxlynx fell.int0.pits @ Saturday, October 30, 2004 09:07 p.m.

x/OneKissWeBegin

al0r.
its me lynnie.
0n m0nday nid t0 g0 back t0 scho0l t0 see the appeal list..den g0 t0 cuzzie h0use and im g0ing t0 meet him!!
yeys! its been s0 l0ng since i last since his cutesy face! i miss him damn l0ts!! weeeee~ im anticipating every minutes till m0nday.
s0 n0tty darlingg dinch fast yestie. tsktsk. im 0n my way 0f changing int0 a nyce grrl but he is still bad bad badd.
twinsy appealed t0 g0 3E4, c0s she want t0 take POA. wish her luckss!
neways t0day rhyo is leaving f0r aussie.. awwwww! po0r twinsy.. he is g0ing t0 be away.. but i tink he is c0ming back this yr larhs, during december, eh?
blueks. i miss my darlingg. esp the 0ther day ad geylang. i miss him s0 much i feel like g0ing t0 bo0n lay that very m0ment..but i n0e i cant. aiy0.
s0 t0day, did n0thing.. watch mete0r garden 0ny. w0ke up 11.20++ l0ike that. den t0ss&turn in bed.. & suddenly i miss darlingg. wala0wey. i cann0t tahan lei. can i see him t0day......................................................
.......................................................
...............................................................
can i? may i? please please please please!!
uwekk. i fil s0 sad.
hmmx. yestie i t0ld him sth& im s0rey.
i dunn0 why i kip thinking ab0ut my ex-es and past.
wtf am i thinking. please lar, the "m0st mell0w,dedicated,faithful guy"(qu0ted fr0m darlingg) is right infr0nt 0f y0u and u still tink ab0ut the past? wtf.
im g0ing t0 be the bestest gf he everr.(Niz, take n0te 0f thiss..)
hurhurhurhurhur..l0ve him s0 much&al0t.
tmr i haf n0 idea whud t0 d0..
tmr is sunday.
m0nday n0 scho0l.
scho0l cl0se ledy.
TBM ask me 0ut t0day g0 breakfast 0utside, ad geylang.
see lars h0w..if i n0t lazyy.
leha want t0 g0 t0 metr0, ad the exp0.
see furst lars h0w..if i n0t lazyy.
but it seemed that im lazyy. damn lazyy. t0 g0 out t0day c0s i miss him. im such a fadhwh0re. im addicted t0 him. and sumtymes im suffering fr0m missingfadh illness. l0ls. (he is suffering fr0m this special illness - missingliena..which the d0ct0r have c0nfirmed. hahaha. shuweet!)

end here~
{astoria*grrl}
<3mrAstoria

xmayxlynx fell.int0.pits @ Saturday, October 30, 2004 01:34 p.m.

WhereHaveYouRunTo?{imissu}*

aloha
may's back t0 bl0g again
just gawt h0me fr0m sch00l.
when t0 sch00l wid my mum and dad
t0 see mrs chew abt my result and the retaining thingy
b0th parties kip 0n say the problem lies in ME
i jus fucking t00 lazy t00 care abt my studies
it s0 true. this is whut i realise t0.
my parents want appeal l0r.but principal busy
s0 we went t0 l0yang p0int makan ferst
i add y0ng tau fu.*yummy*
and a b0wl 0f b0b0 cha cha.
saw nat and her mum dere
den i eating half way my phone virbate.
s0 happy. its darlingg calling
i quickly picked up dee call.
{conversati0n}
rhy0:darlingn
me:yes? yes? {excited}
rhy0:where u?
Me:0utside
rhy0:0h g0ing where later
me:sch00l
rhy0:alright byee.


after dat i msg him saying "i miss u al0t".
den he said i miss u al0t 0s0.
dats why i called u just now.awhh.s0 sweet man.
Fuck man!!! why didnt i get t0 kn0w him earlier.
den he wunt leave. boowhoo!
i wanna cry. i'm so sad. and l0st
when 's g0ne wh0 is g0nna be there f0r me besides brina?
wh0 is g0nna guide this blur queen through
darkness 0nce again? make her feel wanted and special?
hais. anyway jus h0pe dats
mr sin will approve my appeal 0f gg t0 3e4
and take up an0ther subj POA and h0pefully
i g0t frenw l0r.c0z my twiny wanna g0 4-Na.
i s0 l0nely lia0x.but n0 matter whut
she is still always my 0ne and 0nly best twiny!
gawd tml he's leaving.i'm s0 g0nna miss him
i w0nder if i wuld cry. i have n0 idea
but i 0nly n0e n0w im feeling a little sad
just n0w in dee aftern00n wr0te him a letter
intending t0 give him tml b4 he b0ard


darlingg wanna let u n0e dats
Before you came into my life,
I had nothing.
But now that you have stepped into my life,
I have everything.
You are my one and only,
u helped me get over my fears.
You've made me feel wanted;
you've made me feel special.
I promise you I will never let you go,
I promise you I will love you with all my heart and soul.
i wont lwt u g0 till u choose to give up on me first


[(may hearts rhyo]]
{santeriana*grrl 101}
xThe.Twinsx

xmayxlynx fell.int0.pits @ Friday, October 29, 2004 09:42 p.m.

x/LikeViolenceYouHaveMeForeverAndEver

al0r.
t0day lynnie rajin.
c0s she happy s0 she space 0ut the p0st.
heheheh.
s0 i think lar my appeal t0 g0 t0 sec 4 normal acad is appr0ved.
heres the st0ry, went inside the principal 0ffice with m0m and t0ld him whud i wanted..den he was listening. and he said it is still the same, either r0ute im g0ing..2006, still taking my 0-lvl..he ask the reas0n..i say that i cann0t c0pe with the express syllabus. den he say express and n0rmal acad is the same. l0l. im 0ready shitt0fo0k..den m0m helped out..and den he say 0key, i will c0nsider ab0ut it.. den he put me int0 4NC.. wala0wey. the class ryte, g0t LEECH! aiy0. 0key, hes shazzy boyf. den s0 and s0 he to0k my rep0rt bo0k and said he g0ing t0 change the "retained at s3 express" part..wo0h0o. i felt s0 happy c0s my appeal is approved f0r the 2nd tyme. last yr appealed f0r art c0s i dun wan DNT. sucks. den g0 out GO ledy, f0rg0t t0 ask f0r the bo0klist.. den went inside again..and him.. den he t0ld me t0 ged it fr0m the clerk.. 0r issit the administrat0r..? 0h, whudever j0b ure h0lding..yes y0u.the w0man hu is always in the office, picking up calls.
0h yah, he asked me if i appealed t0 sec 4 n0rmal bc0s 0f nebody, l0ike i wan to be with s0meb0dy with that class.
i was sh0ckedd sia. i gave him a quick reply, "huh?! noo!!"
den he smiled. stupid principal.
neways, thankss f0r appr0ving my appeal.
yeyness! i feel s0 happy. l0ls.
and stupid, i just nid 1 m0re mark f0r my art den i can g0 t0 s4 express and take 0 lvl nxt yr.
den mrs chew say my foundation is weak. wtf. i asked leha, and our grades f0r maths,sci,humans same2 seh. den she ged promoted and i nid 0ne m0re blardy percent and i ged same as hers.
and fo0k y0u, j0hn's percentage is l0wer than mine!
he g0t 43.5 and mine is 44.5 and he g0t pr0moted. bias ah d0rang. benci seh!!
hmph. i miss darlingg and i wr0te letters t0 y0u.
den f0lded it int0 a samosa f0rm/style.. l0ls.
{letters to you
only 3 days left and we will be
meeting s0mewher,s0meh0w. been 10 days
since i last see your cutesy face and
i miss you al0t.its 0nly 18 days we are
t0geder and i am SO int0 y0u.
really h0pe t0 see y0u so0n and spend many2
tyme w/ y0u!!
i miss&heart you m0re than i did yestie
<3s,
Lynnie
<3youlots}
s0 thats the letter! heheheks!

end here~
{astoria*grrl}
hearts<33333U

xmayxlynx fell.int0.pits @ Friday, October 29, 2004 07:28 p.m.

LikeTheAngels*

its may here
al0r ah
i just upl0ded a new s0ng t0 dee bl0g
rise against-like the angel
a very nice songs intr0 t0 me by my bel0ved darlingg
very b0red.jus edited finish another pics 0f me and my twiny{lyn}
t0day i br0ught dee dig cam t0 sch00l.
t00k al0t 0f pics.
m0st pics in dee cam is invested by the face 0f my twiny
and me!!!! whahahaha
g0nna starting write ma longg longg letter fer darlingg
tml he's leaving fer aussie
s0 sad. dun n0e h0w t0 live.
i dun even dare t0 think 0f my days w/0 him
by my side to acc me and l0ve me
very afraid that things will change
i pr0mise t0 wait.
but i h0pe he will n0t betary me
and i wunnt t0.
thats all i wish f0r.
k la. i bl0gg until here
ad nites den bl0gg again.
tata peeps

{santeriana*grrl 101}-(the twins)
xrhyo&mayx


Like The Angel lyrics
they turn the lights down low,
in shadows hiding from the world,
only coming out when it gets cold
the seas part when they hit the floor,
the voices carry on and out the door
and everything you touch turns into gold
like the angel you are laugh creating a lightness in my chest,
your eyes they penetrate me,
(your answer's always 'maybe')
that's when I got up and left
a beating heart and a microphone,
a ticking clock in an empty home
still tells of these times so long ago,
and even though I've come so far, I know
I've got so far to go and any day now I'll explode
like the angel you are laugh creating a lightness in my chest,
your eyes they penetrate me,
(your answer's always 'maybe')
that's when I got up and left
each and everyday it leads into tomorrow
and tomorrow brings one less day without you
but don't wait up just leave the light on
cause all the roads that I might take will all one day lead back to you
like the angel you are laugh creating a lightness in my chest,
your eyes they penetrate me,
(and this is too amazing)
that's when I got up and left

xmayxlynx fell.int0.pits @ Friday, October 29, 2004 04:25 p.m.

x/StarryEmoKyds

im lazy t0 space out this post again,.. neways al0r, its me lynnie.. aiyah, i din ged the sec4 booklist..and my report book, clearly stated and in bolds, "RETAINED AT S3 EXPRESS". fuck that line. thats the m0st w0rst w0rst line i ever seen in my report book.. theres always the "PROMOTED TO S2 EXPRESS"&"PROMOTED TO S3 EXPRESS" den skali this yr kena retained. wtf!!
s0 its 0key, n0thing was em0ti0nal t0day. n0 crying whudsoever shit. t0ok AL0T of pics in twinsy digi cam. w0arh!! i l0ike. IM A CAMWHORE!! l0l. frida talked t0 me t0day..and i just, talk t0 her lah. s0 justie, anti-skinny bitch club is 0fficially 0pen. hehs. im getting bad. launched the rocket justie, and shitfuck i was wet! stupid water! played card all the way ad canteen.. poker cards. fun lia0x. den hayyan s0 cute&funny. 0f all things.. DONKEY CARDS? wala0wey! they st0le p0ker cards but paid f0r the d0nkey cards c0s n0t enuff m0ney. assh0le sia th0se tw0..1.50 os0 cann0t aff0rd. piss 0n y0u.
yestie g0 geylang.. w0arh. i rili cann0t say netink here. c0s it sucks!! esp this guy hu kip appearing whereber i g0. whud 0ny. n0 life. thats my admirer and my cuzzin's gay partner. l0l! den inside bus summ0re.. w0arh.stupid guys..tshtsk. and my cuzzin gif me 0ne advice: grrls dun sit ad the back of the bus ad night and dun sleep. alight fr0m bus ledy den he tell. stupid sia.
i miss my darlingg like hell t0day. been 10 days since i see darlingg cutesy face. been 17 days we are t0geder yet im s0 0bsessed with him. aiy02. lalalala.. i lurve my darlingg! muackx muackx muackx!!!
end here~
{astoria*101}
<3twinsy&darlingg

xmayxlynx fell.int0.pits @ Friday, October 29, 2004 01:45 p.m.

Starry.emo.kyds.feat the twins*

aloha,It me May
i regreted g0ing t0 sk00l t0day man
s00 damm fucking b0ring
s0 pissed 0ff.weather s0mem0re lyk FUCK!
twiny,shazzy and me was lyk bitching dee Frida bitch 24/7
seriously i REALLY REALLY cant STAND her!!!!
s0 flirticious. n0 w0nder the b0i br0ke up wid her
g00d fer her.this is retributi0n
see larz. flirt s0mem0re flirt s0mem0re
muahahahah! ahte her t0 the c0re
f00king mad t0dae bastard me
say wanna c0me, but in dee end nv c0me
ARGHSSSSSSSSS!
anyway i t0ld my dad abt the retaining thingy.
he jus nag and nag.nv sc0ld. x)
i g0tta d0 s0mething fer darlingg
i shall end here.tata peepz and my dearest twiny

{santeriana*grrl 101}
xRhyoMayx
[the twins]

xmayxlynx fell.int0.pits @ Thursday, October 28, 2004 10:27 p.m.

x/SingMeSomethingSort,Sad&Delicate

0key, its me, Lynnie here. t0day im lazy t0 space out my p0st. i am s0 freaking pissed t0day by "Frida". 0ny me, shaz and may n0es abt Frida & wan os0, he figured it 0ut himself. she is s0 damn eksyen t0day. she dun wanna talk t0 me..fine, i w0nt talk t0 her. den she is always wanting attention fr0m the b0ys. n0t that im jeal0u ah, but when pple accuse her 0f flirting, she will rant t0 me 10000000 pages l0ng, i tell y0u. its sickening when she flirt and c0mplains when pple accuse her 0f flirting. wtf. nemind. i styll haf my twinsy with me. and shazzy. t0day we r the 3 musketeers. and assh0le u fucking ma-beng..say t0day want t0 c0me t0 sco0l, ad last nvr c0me.. fuck u madhan!! hmrph. whud pissed me t0tally 0ff until i gib her the title Frida is, the st0ry like this: mly tcher t0ld us t0 select 5 pple fr0m 0ur class t0 g0 f0r a malay perf0mance ad esplanade on the 3rd december/8.00PM. s0 i wanted t0 g0 and ask the rest hu wanna g0, den Frida was ad the upper hall and been there s0 l0ng and i lazy wan g0 up, s0 hell with her. den the pple g0ing.. me, shazzy, mun, wan and lisa. den during end 0f break tyme.. g0t t0 n0e she reselect the pe0ple g0ing. wtf. luckily i nvr gif mdm marini the names furst seh. den when shazzy t0ld me abt whud frida did, frida was lo0king ad me and smiling.fuck the hairs 0ut 0f u! u dunn0 h0w t0 smile d0n smile. c0s it is damn blardy fake!! fuck y0u bitch. den shazzy t0ld me, im kinda pissed c0s she like ebrything wan t0 be in charge..bah~ budden i dun want t0 sp0il my day s0 i kept my co0l and act 0kay. s0 i went t0 firdaus t0 call the bapok, which makes me 0kay.. al0t okay. hahahahar. after the r0cket2 thing, g0 t0 class and slacked till 1.45. bef0re 1.45 i and twinsy went off the class ledy. cann0t tahan the Frida.. s0 is shazzy. her sight makes me puke! make my hairs stand 0n its end! y0u are 0nly this cl0se.to.pretty with a flaws inside y0u. s0 shud the crack up. maybe she eksyen c0s she kene pr0mote and her stupid frend her kene retained.. ey, i dun care ab0ut ur status. i h0pe/curse u fail ur o lvl badly c0s my darlingg predicted its g0nna be taff and assh0le u, my darlingg werds will c0me true!! hmrph. den after scho0l.. saw kamaliah and she asked if i want her brudder number; de dunn0 many yr 0ld guy.. 23 ah i tink. l0l.. den he waited f0r me like fr0m last yr, s0 whudde hell, i just take his n0mber and t0ld her high p0ssibility i w0nt b c0ntacting him. den she say w0kayy..t0day i nvr fast. c0s i saw andre eat burger, s0 tempting s0..whudde hell.. just t0ok a bite! w0arh! im s0 evil and s0rry darlingg!! hehs, i c0ntaminated him with my evilness. yestie he s0 bad c0s darlingg nvr FAST!! l0ls.. i os0 nvr fast. -.- dats all my day t0day..and g0wd g0wd g0wd i cant wait till next week. im c0unting d0wn sec0nds c0s i havent meet him f0r m0re than a week!!!!!!!! I MISS YEW~!! w0key. end here~
{astoria*grrl}
xLynxFadhx

xmayxlynx fell.int0.pits @ Thursday, October 28, 2004 02:19 p.m.

TheTwinsAlways*

al0haa. x)
its me may! muahaha
Hais. s0 its already c0mfrim by 0ur f0rm teacher
that the twins which is lyn and myself is
OFFICALLY RETAINING IN SEC3 EXPRESS.
3e6 have 0pen the d00r f0r us yet 4e3 cl0se the d00r
DAMM! im s0 sad s0 sad.
its a sad sad situati0n.
after 0ur f0rm teacher break the
terrible fucking news t0 us.
we headed f0r library as its
art less0n and Mr.heng n0t ar0und
i wanna watch FRIDA lei
when we reached the library.
lyn{my twins} suggest that b0th 0f us
hide in 0ne c0rner and cry.
but we didnt, we jus cried infr0nt 0f 0ur peepz
i have n0 idea why i cried.
tears jus r0ll d0wn my cheeks lyk a br0ken water tap
mayb i cired to ease my stress? my pain?
i dunn0, i guess 0nly my heart kn0w dee real ans
firdaus called the bap0k! makka0! geli si0l dgr suare
dierr.. thn ketawe jer~ later the bap0k dgr..
the suare s0 stim.. den l0ike. bluek. geli ah.
laughed like hell. firduas say love u.
den the bap0k say love always you.
whahahahaha.mun ,me and my twins luff lyk hell man
Anyway mad give me an indian name puspawati
l0ls whut the fuck. maysze already nice lia0z
lyn{my twins} call lechmi.whaahahah
0h yah. i f0rget t0 ann0unce
LYN AND MAY ARE OFFICALLY {THE TWINS}
lyn and i planned to study in sch 2time a week.
den everyday go home mus study first den can use internet.
lyn u mus d0 it 0s0 k. x)
we b0th os0 planned t0 wear converse stuffs next yr..
maybe mad os0.. yey! im s0 excited. converse.
wanna n0e why? c0s it is my fave brand
and converse all-STAR!
t0day darlingg c0me my h0use.
luckily my daddy nv sc0ld. l0ls.
anyway i break the news to my mum that mayb i retain lia0
scare.hais.
i shall end here lia0s.
cia0z.


{santeriana*grrl 101}
xTheTwinsx

xmayxlynx fell.int0.pits @ Wednesday, October 27, 2004 08:09 p.m.

x/LookToYourSidesIAmN o w h e r eNearYou

al0r.
its me lynnie..
s0 it have been c0nfirmed.
i&MS are retaining, s0 are 0therss..
nemind. feel sad f0r her. at least my m0m is 0key,
but she sucks as she die2 os0 want me t0 g0 n0rmal acad.
but my aunt helped me thru! she sc0lded my m0m! yey! thanks aunt. i s0 dun wan g0 t0 n0rmal acad. bad influence ah they all. hehs. saje ajerr aku judge d0rang. s0rey!
hmmx, *screams* s0 MS and i justie pledged t0 study 2 tymes evry week and n0t t0 s0cialize al0t.
hey MS! u better mean ur w0rds lia0x!! hehehe!
and we b0th os0 planned t0 wear converse stuffs next yr.. maybe mad os0.. yey! im s0 excited. converse. n0e why? c0s it is my fave brand and converse all-STAR!
they g0t me an indian name..lechmi. fuck yo0 all! my name nurliena l0vely2 0ready(whud my bf said) gimme lechmi. whud sia. den MS g0t puspawati, sumtink l0ike tat. l0l!
s0 we 0fficially bcame twins! i mean MS and me. hehehe.
she kinda l0ok like me u n0e. im kiping my hair t0 be l0ng.. =)
in library..firdaus called the bap0k! makka0! geli si0l dgr suare dierr.. thn ketawe jer~ later the bap0k dgr.. die2 sia. the suare s0 stim.. den l0ike. bluek. geli ah. funny os0.. laughed like hell.
den they start talking abt bap0k and whudever hell.
i dunn0 whud t0 bl0g ledy.
and SHAZANA! u next yr dun eksyen2 with me ah. 0r else i curse u t0 fail ur o lvl.
buahahahaha!we cursed her s0 bad sia justie.
zulaiha, i dunn0 la.. let her g0 her 0wn ways. im letting g0 0f her. hehs. surely laterr she eksyen with me. c0s m0rning2 dun wan talk t0 me. hmrph. i os0 nvr talk t0 her.
0kay, s0 i end here.

{astoria*grrl}
xthextwinsx

xmayxlynx fell.int0.pits @ Wednesday, October 27, 2004 05:20 p.m.

al0r peeps
its may x)
*yawns* g0shy s0 tired man
just taken my dinner and had a gre8t bath
as f0r t0day i can say that i spent my day well.
i talked and talked to shazzy all the period.
we talked simply everything under the sun
as f0r the first 2 peri0d.
mrs chew 0n her spo0ilt radi0 f0r us
and her she g0es nagging and nagging 0nce m00re
its alright, we are use to it since sec2 x)
i guess i'm g0nna retain
but h0pefully n0t yah?
i dunn0,i dunn0,i dunn0,i dunn0
but i just kn0w im feeling very very c0nfuse inside me
al0t 0f things are happening at the same time
t00 much f0r me t0 abs0rb and aceept at 0ne time.
anyway darlingg said that if i really retain
it may be g00d me me t00
s0 whut if i pr0m0te? suffer at sec4? take o's and fail?
wasting m0ney taking 0's as pravite candicates?
t00 much questi0n in my head n0w.hais.
pers0n who i can talk t0 is 0nly lyn ans shaz!
but n0ne 0f them is 0nline
FUCK LAR!!!!!!!!!!!! SO PISSED OFF!!
JUS QUARRELL WITH DARLINGG !!!!
ALL BCOZ OF THE FUCKING MSN! DAMM!!
i cant carry 0n aint m0re
bye..tk care lyn!


{santeriana*101}

xmayxlynx fell.int0.pits @ Tuesday, October 26, 2004 09:47 p.m.

x/TheDropsOfTearsYouCriedTheStreamOfBloodYouBleed

al0r.
its me Lynnie p0sting and its s0 n0t again!
hehehehe! c0s MS bl0g yestie. w0arh!
0key,MS thats shuweet. the best of the best fwens.
l0l! *screams* 1.4.3MS!! hehs. darlingg, dun ged jeles!
0kay, i shall ann0unce that im 0fficially in 3E6 next yr.
g0wsh.im still in '3' instead 0f '4'.
fuck the hell 0ut 0f y0u. hehs. nemind la, 4E3 dun wan me mah. fuck u 4E3!! whud sia lyn cursing.
i h0pe MS ged retained os0!! buahahahaha! im s0 bad. ad leas i haf my best best frend t0 be with me in class and we g0ing t0 screw th0se bitches 0ut 0f their skin. buahahaha!
evil seh. t0ld u, im bad. lalalala~
fitri t0day very pervert. n0 shame, say im his scandal.
fuck y0u!!im s0 n0t ur scandal.summ0re he use his tie t0 tickle my leg. wth. grrls in sec 2 better n0t be bitchy t0 me.. if n0t i screw u many2. im archellie a badd grrl if u want t0 n0e ah. very evil. y0u can ask darlingg.
0h yeahs, darlingg read the s0ng and he l0ikes it! but i tink it is crapp. can i make that s0ng l0ike, err.. em0-scream?
firdaus break with mai ledy. hehs. naddie,ged whud i mean, my advantage is pple disadvantage? i g0t t0 n0e TWO c0uple br0ke up t0day.
and firdaus is s0 sickening! his hp full 0f p0rn! my g0wsh. h0w did i everr...bluek. dun wanna say. i lurve my darlingg. i miss him l0ike hell t0day i cann0t tahan lia0. 0ne week nvr see him. wth. I MISS YOU DARLINGG!
he say t0day special day f0r him. its n0t his bdae ryte? err.. den whud else seh special? must be his huever bdae...hmmx, dun wan t0 tell me seh.
t0 my dearest MS,
if i 0r u everr ged pr0m0ted, we will opt t0 be retained s0 that we can b t0gether.l0l..t0uching sia! neways, i dun tink my sci/humans f0undation is THAT go0d to take o-lvl next yr. limit2 i fail den waste2 $$$ pay f0r 0-lvl if i nvr pursuee my studies. so, retaining is a go0d thing, fr0m whud i n0e. weeee~!
u pple see ah, next 3 yrs, my name will be in the h0nour roll!!! u just watch 0ut! t0p student. l0l. dream on la sia~
i th0t dr0pping t0 na is a go0d thing. but den it is n0t! c0s with my kind 0f attitude/pr0blems, i dun think i c0uld everr ged a place in SEC5..den later g0 ite. i dun wan ar..0r private sch take 0-lvl..waste tyme seh. im taking the l0ngest r0ad 0f life everr. im lame.
t0day i nvr fast c0s i dun feel like it. j0hn m0rning2 eksyen. last week os0..i ask him, t0day fast an0t..den he say yes. s0 whudda hell, i dun care ab0ut him during recess i g0 eat burger..th0t he fasting lia0x. den chem less0n.. eating snack, he n0 shame2 ask me s0me. banyak ka0 punyer puase!
MS...i wish y0u luck, y0u wish me lucks os0 kay? neways we b0th same line mah~ of c0s results same lia0x. i dun think we os0 ready f0r 0-lvl next yr. laterr nxt yr struggle like hell sia. struggle until g0t blo0d cl0t den r0t in hell. hehs.
im s0 evil t0day.
i g0t n0 mo0d s0 i pissed 0ff tw0 frends.
0bviously fauzee is 0ne 0f them! duh~
t0day im s0 crazee 0ver M__K__ and billy j0e! i cann0t mention MK real name c0s later darlingg sc0ld! wellie, h0pe t0 watch SHARK TALE with darlingg b4 his ITP! uwekk! we cann0t be t0gether sey during his ITP. c0s laterr he tired and all.. =( nemind. im a go0d gf. i understand! hehs.
pe0ple been asking me hu is mrAstoria, hu is y0ur bf. whud sch he is fr0m. thats co0l u n0e. furst tyme pple dunn0 hu im g0ing steady with. usually very fast spread wanx c0s my bl0g im to0 obsessed with my bf! hahahaha!
its n0t that im n0t obsessed with him. i am!
but den i try n0t t0, c0s i g0t a life 0f myself t0 tink of. i dun even n0e whud t0 d0 with my life.
lemme settle my life first den i settle with u kay, i just need THREE m0re fucking days then scho0l cl0se and i am f0rever y0urs! ur beck and call! ur everything! wheneber u nid me i'll be there, im just a ph0necall away!
archellie, im 27 stations away. bah~ s0 far!
my hiatus ends t0day. budden, im bl0gged when im on hiatus/AWOL. finally, after m0nths, i noe whud AWOL means. thanks to darlingg. muackx muackx muackx!! he is s0 wanting t0 watch shark tale. s0 cute rytee. bluek.

end here~
{astoria*grrl}
hearts.H I M

xmayxlynx fell.int0.pits @ Tuesday, October 26, 2004 04:06 p.m.

TakeMyHeart;DunBreakIt*

al0r,its may p0sting. =)
Been a longg longg time since i p0st.
Bcuz my damm com went madd again & need to repair
luckily dearie lyn is 0ways there t0 entertain our peepz
s00n t0 be my very best of my best fren
jus dunn0 why she understand me veri well
w/0 needing t0 0pen my mouth
We can telepathy i guess
c00l yah? muahahaha
aniway i got alot of thingyy to blogg.
these few days lots of things happen yah
s0me things which make me smile appear
nevertheless s0me make my heart bleed and etc.
hmmm.let me start on how i spend
and whut i do on the last friday.{22/10}
i went to sch00l as usual.
first 3 peri0d was art
Mr.edmund heng. played a movie fer us
its call {frida} if i'm n0t wr0ng.
0h g0shy. val and joyce said that frida was ME
WHUT THE HELL
and guess whut dee moive is sex&vi0lence
abt dee m0vie i will c0py a |i| pr0ti0n fr0m lyn
t00 lazyy t00 type s0 much yah
{frida is crippled and the st0ry is a flashback..
h0w she g0t crippled, h0w tw0 accidents happen
in her life and her marriage.
she g0t t0 kn0w this guy, Diego,
and they sw0re t0 bc0me frends 0nly bc0s
Diego is a WOMANIZER.
after they sw0re, they kissed. i mean KISS with t0ngue.
l0l. den they m0ved 0n t0 bed and he stripped her.
l0l.i was like 0ready, "0h, frends d0 these??".
hehs. m0re of a blue substance m0vie den a true life.
but sad thing..Diego played 0n her and
real sad..when he had sex with Frida's sister.}
and dee st0ry g0es 0n..=)
after sch actually wanna c0nfr0nt HER
But i didnt.dunn0 why i just cant 0pen my m0uth
Maybe i t00 s0fthearted? chey bah x)
after that baba and i headed back h0me.
i went t0 t00k a bathe
and den i stepped int0 dreamland fer 2 hrs
after that darlingg rudely dashed into my dreamland
call me wait outside my condo fer him.
he taking bicmotor come to fetch me go buy
cigarette den go chalet.
went t0 chalet played GUITTAR!!
T0 THE PERSON OUT THERE!!!
DUN THINK ONLY U PLAY GUITAR! AND I DUNNO HOW.
ard 7 plus they started bbq.
darlingg so sweet. he bbq f00d fer me
melted my stone heart x) love him so much
around 8 darling,me,mark,louis
and asaph bbq f00d and bring it over to give brina
she got chicken poke den nv c0me s0 sad yah.
after that went back t0 chalet again.
sat d0wn watch tv until ard 10 i went to the r00m slack
den SHE ph0ned me
i finally confronted her man
i guess she LIED so disappointed!
n0 m0re frenship i guess, whut dee use 0f having
when she bitch abt me with s0 0ther bitch 0utside
SHE must have BRAIN-WASHED dee bitch i guess
PERSON I KNOW EVERYTHING SO JUST STOPING
FUCKING LYING TO ME,BCOZ I DESPITE LIARS!
AND THIS MAKE ME DESPITE U!!
i satyed over the chalet that day. d0ne a little romancing with darlingg.l0ls x)
nx morning darlingg sent me h0me.
i went t0 bath and slept fro0m 11 to 7. piggy yeah?
i w0ke up sms darlingg den watch vcd dee wh0le day
Sunday, went 0ut with dee band leaving
shahrul the cuttie 0ut. l0ls
they went t0 print they band pic 0ut.nice seh
i 0s0 wan! l0ls. i shall put it in my c0m
den we eat and slack at far east.
darlingg s0 bad g0 disturb the jap grrls.
den t00k 12 h0me
t0day i w0ke up ard 11. and watched vcd AGAIN
den 12plus i watch up darlingg
he so pig lei. if i dun wait him up.
he will c0mfirm carry 0n sleeping wan
1 plus meet him.acc him go bedok see d0ct0r.
den t00k bus 17 t0 his h0use.
helped him dye his hair
nice lei.i like the green part. x)
after that the t00k din bike sent me h0me x)
thats all. l0ls. love darlingg so MUCHH tml a bit scare to go sch.i scare i retain
i guess 3/6 is awaiting for me and lyn yah?
or may a 4/3? i have so idea
i shall end here.x)
{santeriana*grrl 101}

P/S: TO DEE BITCH OUT THERE I HATE U! U SUCKS! AND PLS
FUCK OFF FROM MY SIGHT. THANKS ALOT.!!!

ilu;0nce my darlingg always my darlingg.Muacksx

xmayxlynx fell.int0.pits @ Monday, October 25, 2004 09:42 p.m.

x/SongOfTheYear

xunfoldedxwordsx

if the stars arent out tonight
turn to my side and i'll make it right,
kissing goodbyes but we are never far
distanced physically emotionally near
you took my miseries,pain and fear

i sliced my veins to let it flow,
let you see that this is true,
the bloody romance that i used to know and
the darkest moments i need to ged thru

if there is a reason my lungs is to breathe,
(i miss you so i lurve you)it would be you
if ever theres a reason my heart is beating,
(i lurve you i miss you so)it would be you
if theres ever a reason i stopped bleeding,
you'd expect this,it is true
and the reason is you

darlingg, tell me is this what i get?
for falling in lurve wthout tearing apart
i never did realised youre always there
that one day u showed me u really care
(those times i told u about my bloody.romance)

you wiped away the past that stains,
you mend the pieces of broken smiles,
you glued the slices of my crossed wrist,
pulled apart this soul thats squeezed

and the reason is you,you know its true
when i scream i love you i never lied
i miss you so much it hurts, i cried
this never ending rants soon dies
now i ged too obsessed its hard to say gdbye

if there is a reason my lungs is to breathe,
(i miss you so i lurve you)it would be you
if ever theres a reason my heart is beating,
(i lurve you so i miss you)it would be you
if theres ever a reason i stopped bleeding,
you'd expect this,it is true
and the reason is you

if the stars arent out tonight
(i'll not be okay)
lay by my side hug me tight
together we make this right...

xox,{astoria*grrl}
s0ng esp f0r mrAstoria! <3 y0u s0
dedicated f0r MS101&her bo0(mr.santeriana)
3 cheers!

xmayxlynx fell.int0.pits @ Monday, October 25, 2004 09:36 p.m.

x/IfThatIsWhudYouWantThenFireAdWill

al0r.
this is Lynnie.
im supp0sed t0 be hiatus.
aiy0..yestie went 0ut with my cuzzin, and adek.
i lo0k like a m0m!! hahaha! den g0t these tak l0gic guys disturb me. bluek.
den ad nyte g0 buy chicken..den g0t my old "fren".. hehe..as usual.. he talked t0 me and played with my brudder.
and justie,my 0ld "flame" appeared ad my do0r.., t0 pass fo0d. wo0t! sh0cking. hmmx, whudever.
hmmx, darlingg is getting s0 shuweet! his bl0g he put 0ur pic ad the main page. he did it w0key!& it is nice! wo0t. cleverr darlingg!
s0 im am sh0cked t0 see his bl0g justie.. lurve him t0 the max t0 the extreme t0 the supreme. hehs.
h0pe i can g0 0ut tmr! nearly 0ne week nvr see him. wahseyy, and im surviving. dats go0d!
i kirim gums fr0m j0hn c0s he g0 jb. h0pe he buys! =)
everything is fine with nat n0w, 0nly that the sac grrls exaggerating the fact like hell. aisey man.
darlingg talked abt his ex justie. f0und her 0n frendster. i mean like,whuds his intenti0n seh g0 frendster? neways,if he see her face dere and hate her.. why he g0 and see her pr0file? takkan he cann0t rec0gnise his 0wn ex face sia. whudever ah. as he wish. make a s0ng abt her summ0re. ah, ur wish is my c0mmand lar h0rx. aper2 uh. dun wanna ged angry. =) x) *relaxing*
s0 terdelete 2 m0re s0ngs fr0m his mp3. im s0 sucky and clumsy. im a bad gf. f0rgive me pls.
i dun care ab0ut this.
i heart MASASHI KIMURA al0t. jap guys are s0 h0t. hmmmm... xOx!! lalalalala

end here~
{astoria*grrl}
mrs.MasashiKimura

xmayxlynx fell.int0.pits @ Sunday, October 24, 2004 09:35 p.m.

x/announcement: hiatus

xmayxlynx fell.int0.pits @ Saturday, October 23, 2004 05:40 p.m.

x/WhatsTheWorstYouTakeFromHeartYouBreak

al0r.
this is Lynnie again..again&again..again& a g a i n
went t0 darlingg bl0g justie.
seems that he haf a fun tyme t0day..enjoying with his frend.. lo0king ad pretty grrls in t0wny. is this 3 cheers f0r sweet revenge that i lo0k ad the super hunky in M'sia?
haiz.
s0 he enj0yed this day while im here..
missing him l0ike hell. cant seem t0 be enj0ying myself.
s0 paran0id 0f myself. paran0id abt my studies.
and 0ur relationship.
w0key. im s0 speechless.
i dunn0 whud else t0 say.
i g0t n0 lurv t0 confess.
i nid tyme f0r myself.
m0m rather me g0 sec4(Na) then being retained.
whudeber it is, im still taking maj0r exams.
i dun tink im ready f0r whudever exams shit.
fuck lar, why did things end up like this. and where is darlingg? i havent see him f0r a day.
i feel s0 vulgar n0w. i wan t0 piss sum0ne. i want t0 fuck s0meone. i wan t0 cibai s0meone. hus that s0meone.
fauzee. where r u when i needed y0u the m0st? i s0 nid t0 piss 0n u. c0me here baby.
i better leave bf0re i ged crappy.
b y e .
i dun l0ve u.

xmayxlynx fell.int0.pits @ Friday, October 22, 2004 08:07 p.m.

x/TakeThisBrokenHeartAndMakeItRight

al0r.
its me Lynnie p0sting.
MS is okay, but still pissed with whud had happened.
she wanted t0 c0nfr0nt her justie but at last she dinch. den her ask why MS dunwan talk t0 her. den the MS dunn0 whud t0 answer s0 i answer f0r her "ader ar" den her was like, "eh aku tak tanye kau kan" s0 i gave her a short and sweet reply, "eh aku tahu pasal hal ni" and i guess either she malas wan t0 layan 0r she is speechless, she kept quiet only.
dunn0 la she. supp0sedly t0 be my go0d fren.
h0w did things twist and turn s0 badly it to0k the wr0ng highway?
aiy0 aiy0!!
s0 this m0rn, art we watch a m0vie..a true life accnt abt this artist named Frida. g0wsh. the m0vie.. sex&vi0lence! i l0ike sex&vi0lence!..(seri0us u n0e!) l0l. sia0 uh. batal puase~ but rili, theres s0me sex&vi0lence scenes which i l0ike. 0key, back t0 the m0vie..
frida is crippled and the st0ry is a flashback..h0w she g0t crippled, h0w tw0 accidents happen in her life and her marriage. she g0t t0 kn0w this guy, Diego, and they sw0re t0 bc0me frends 0nly bc0s Diego is a WOMANIZER. after they sw0re, they kissed. i mean KISS with t0ngue. l0l. den they m0ved 0n t0 bed and he stripped her. l0l.i was like 0ready, "0h, frends d0 these??". hehs. m0re of a blue substance m0vie den a true life. but sad thing..Diego played 0n her and real sad..when he had sex with Frida's sister. g0wsh. im 0ready s0 insecured and doubts 0n my mind ad that tyme.i nearly cried c0s i scared and shaz to0, but she is w0rst, she cursed Diego s0 much, s0 much that i tink her puase batal 0ready! l0l.maybe we r the em0 0nes in class. hmmmm..
m0nday n0 sch.
tuesday g0t sch. tuesday is g0ing t0 be suspense-packed day f0r me.
retain. retain. retain. retain. retain. retain. Retained at Sec 3 Express. later u see my rep0rt bo0k..surely cumm0ut like that. maybe i deserve this c0s i dinch study. i dun mind staying back.. but my m0m is s0 g0ing t0 mind!! she is s0 g0ing t0.. kill me and cut me up int0 pieces and eat me f0r break-fast. bo0h0o! darlingg! help me!
s0 justie, still dunn0 want t0 fast an0t. den hazrel was like "puase ar. puase tak b0le rayer" s0 i jus fast la..g0wsh. im a go0d grrl t0day. tmr im fasting. sunday to0. m0nday to0. tuesday im n0t fasting!! l0l. take my off f0r 0ne day. den wednesday, i see furst and thursday i will be fasting and friday, since it is a holy day.. i will fast. =) think im g0ing t0 fast every friday. c0s it is a h0ly day! l0ls.
summ0re weddy must g0 spray ad h0spital. wah. die die sia.
m0nday they want t0 break-fast 0utside. leha ask me g0.. but i dunn0 lei. c furst la h0r. darlingg! i wan t0 watch ouija b0ard! =) pretty please!
s0 darlingg agreed t0 g0 t0 the zo0! finally! but after his ITP, that is l0ike after my bdae, s0 i tink m0st pr0b can c0s im n0t gg t0 d0 netink during h0ls except s0me revisi0ns la..i menti0ned S0ME.
im in l0ve with MCR-thank you f0r the ven0m & Matchbk R.-My eyes burn.
Helena is nice to0..whudda hell. all their s0ngs r nice.
i think my puase batal ledy c0s t0day i vulgar to0 much. l0l. cant st0p saying the w0rd cibai. l0l. whud sia lyn. den summ0re after scho0l, i g0 fuck MS. l0l. "fuck u ar."
fauzee tried s0 hard t0 lecture me. whud de hell. and i t0ld him straite.. "i dun nid y0ur advices." den he was "fine." whud seh. dun try t0 advice2 me ar fauzee. i kill y0u den u n0e. i will skin y0u alive. s0 much pain that you wish you were dead and never irritate me in y0ur life. hehs.
s0 the skinny bitch is s0 c0nfident she will g0 t0 sec4 exp. i h0pe she will be retain. she s0 eksyen sia justie. just g0 t0 an's h0use and suck his dick la! g0 sch f0r whud. den yestie she slept in class and she must be tired sucking dicks. l0l. it is true 0key. she d0es that! bl0wj0bs. filthy m0uth. ewww.and s0 l0ng ledy nvr happy meal ad her. l0l. im s0 bad. still remember the prank i played 0n her during tchers day..i signed her up f0r the tchers day c0ncert. she dunn0 la 0fc0s. i to0k a f0rm and wr0te her name.. well, with the supp0rt 0f s0me others ah. im the mastermind. and her name was called 0ut but of c0s she dinch g0.. but never kena sc0lded. knn.
styll remember h0w fauzee cried and they blamed me bc0s i was sitting beside him.. well, its b0ut j0hn's stupid riddles la. den i purp0sely want t0 kacau him s0 i gif him den he cry. l0l. im such a bad grrl.
wellie, yestie im s0 missing my darlingg l0ike hell. i miss him s0 much. i miss him m0re than i did yestie. aiy0 aiy0. darlingg! c0me here laa. i miss u lei. hehs. heart him s0 muche.
but..if i kene retain ad sec3 exp. mayb the relationship last until this yr 0ny. MAYBE. c0s i wanna f0cus 0n my studies s0 much.f0cus f0cus f0cus until i die 0f to0 many blo0d cl0ts. whud sia. tak l0gic.
wahla0 wey. i want t0 take me o-lvl lei next yr. veli sianx sia. take o-lvl fast2 den go0dbye t0 scho0l life if i dinch pass. if i pass i c0ntinue study if n0t i go straite werk. 0r i slack ad h0me furst den i werk. i wanna b a gro0ming artiste/waitress. cheydey! s0 later if u pe0ple wan t0 kahwin.. call me up. i will dress up y0ur bride s0 much she lo0ks like a real living doll. l0l. of cos dun call me if y0ure the skinny bitch.
s0 these r my plans f0r the future..but i will w0rk 0ut on it la, takkan wan t0 b waitress/gro0ming art. f0r the rest 0f my life. b0ring sia! den wait f0r my darlingg t0 finish NS. wait f0r him t0 settle d0wn furst, ged a stable j0b den we can ged married!! i wan ged married ad 26, w0key darlingg? hehehe! s0 fun la. *this is only my wishful thinking*
den will haf a h0me..den with 0ur kids. and we will gr0w 0ld t0geder. hahs. naik sec4 bl0m lagi b0le ke tak nak mimpi banyak. GED REAL LAR LYN!!
h0pe i can g0 t0 sec4 exp.
go0dbye my 4E3...
heyl0 my 3E6...
3E6 is waiting f0r me.
4E3 haf shut its do0rs f0r me.

end here~
{astoria*grrl}
[*MCA*]<3R-2-K
MCA means..m0i cutesy ayam. l0l.
im R2K's chick. n0t that chick(animal)..de 0ther chick(laydee)
wo0! i heart u darlingg! whereever y0u are! take care!

xmayxlynx fell.int0.pits @ Friday, October 22, 2004 04:35 p.m.

x/FromEveryHeartYouBreak

0key, s0 im a bad grrlfren. l0l. my darlingg did sth nice with my pic and his pic. he put it t0gether, add s0me effect, put s0me text. okey the text is R2K <3 LYN wo0! sh0 shuweet. im s0 happy wen he send me the pic. and guess whud! guess!! i put the pic as my deskt0p backgr0und!! yey! i lurve him t0 bits and pieces! muackx!
{astoria*grrl} <3s Y O U(noe.hu.u.are)

xmayxlynx fell.int0.pits @ Thursday, October 21, 2004 09:27 p.m.

x/WillYouTellAllYourFrendsYouGotYourGunToMyHead

al0r!
s0 been listening t0 TBS&darlingg MCR..
wo0.. l0ng tyme nvr hear lia0..always listen t0 helena,helena,helena..its to0 nice btw! l0l. g0 listen t0 My Chemical Romance-Helena now
went t0 darlingg bl0g justie. s0 he haf updated. 0key, co0l.
the p0st is..blurgh.
i dunn0 why t0day darlingg call me ayam. and i w0nder h0w he n0es my nick is ayam! l0l. maybe frendsterr? arr..i dunn0 la!
he's been very naughty n0wadays.
cheeky os0! nemind la..once in awhile.
i still dunn0 tmr nak puase an0t..i feel s0 lazy. i think n0w i puase like..2 days puase den tak puase. den 2 days puase den tak puase. l0l. lame si0l. nemind.
s0 darlingg agrees with whud i blogged justie.
glad that he understands me..and my past. bah~! my past sucks. al0t.
greatest falls. wellie, they th0t me a less0n. a tremend0us less0n!! okay grrls, guys wh0 make 0ut with y0u on the furst date are jackasses. dun care ab0ut y0ur l0ve f0r him c0s to him it is NOT l0ve. it is m0re 0f sexual thing..sexual deprived..lust..i mean the feeling w0uld be infatuation. he wants y0u c0s he wants t0 fulfil his "steamy" m0ments. l0l. whud de hell. just understand. nvr expect much fr0m guys wh0 make 0ut with y0u on the furst date 0key!
l0l..sec0nd less0n learnt.. d0 g0 f0r guys with lo0ks and pers0nality! never never never g0 f0r either! it is b0th lo0ks and pers0nality. but guys with b0th are really deceiving. i mean, it is to0 great 0f a perfect package. like, y0ur guy is great and go0d lo0king. but dun expect a gorgeous hunk lar with a superb pers0nality. i mean, wh0 haf superb persona? g0wsh. well there is, my darlingg!! l0l. he is b0th with lo0ks and pers0nality. but 0fc0s i f0cus m0re on his pers0nality. g0 f0r b0th. why? bc0s..if u g0 f0r lo0ks and n0t personality.. lo0ks change fast! like burst a pimple and a mark w0uld be left there. lo0ks change ryte? if y0u g0 f0r lo0ks den 0ne day he/she bc0me fat/ugly/ n0t YOUR standard..y0u haf n0thing t0 fall back 0n. if y0u g0 f0r b0th..,prior pers0nality furst c0s ad least if his lo0ks change y0u will still be in lurve with his pers0nality. and likewise f0r pers0nality change, y0u can depend on lo0ks(which is NOT A GOOD IDEA!).
third less0n learnt..d0n g0 f0r guys with a WIDE LARGE UNLIMITED friends all 0ver his waist. all 0ver his life.c0s POSSIBILITY he will haf difficulty in equalising his tyme with y0u and his frends. just ged whud i mean la! make d0 with whud i said.
thats all la i can share with y0u pe0ple. but dun take my stupid werds seriosly c0s it is just my p0int 0f view.
s0 justie, i did housew0rks!! wo0.. ok, heres the catch. n0e why? bc0s they gif me c0mmands/w0rk while im d0ing the previ0us 0ne. like..ask me wash dish den awhile later, ask me wipe the table/mat. y0u must wait! bc0s i hate pe0ple t0 gif me c0mmand 0ne aft anader. like "go wash dish den g0 wipe this and go put this there put that here" its like.. whud? im y0ur pers0nal maid issit? i dun nid time f0r myself after i eat issit? that kind of command, i w0nt d0 and i will thr0w temper. well, thats me. and while im d0ing whud u asked me t0, cut 0ut on ur c0mment! c0s i blardy cann0t stand it. like if y0u ask me t0 wipe table 0r whudever, and while im wiping, dun g0 like this, "that part is dirtyy lah. clean summore lah. this 0ne oso not yet clean. wipe properly can an0t" say that part 0ny. i sh0w attitude and will shout my usual werd, "shuddap ah."
s0 tmr darlingg g0ing t0 sch..hmm. sad fer him, his ITP is l0ike ad h0ugang.. he nids t0 change ad 0utram t0 take the NEL.. i think la or LRT? po0r him. f0r me it is easy la, take bus 72 or 27 g0 there fr0m tamp. po0r little darlingg. and during the ITP, i dun think i wanna disturb him much. c0s he will be d0ing w0rk, and scared if he might be tired and im sure he will nid sum tyme off f0r himself..s0 i w0nt b0ther him much..perhaps 0ny 0n weekends..but suckers, his ITP isnt 0ver until my bdae. AFTER my bdae. hmrph.

end here~
{astoria*grrl}
AYAM <3 NR2K
*Naughty R-2-K*
wellie, s0metimes i care/think to0 much ab0ut him. whud t0 d0..he is my 0nly 0ne. x) s0, s0rry if i ged to0 obsessed..n0t like i dun haf a life 0r whudeverr..but suckers, just understand!! bah~ u dun nid t0 understand la.

xmayxlynx fell.int0.pits @ Thursday, October 21, 2004 08:10 p.m.

x/IMeanThisMoreThanWordsCanEverSay

al0r.
its me Lynnie p0sting.
justie MaySze ask me g0 p0st f0r her but she never tell me whud t0 p0st. x(
wellie, s0 t0day im SUPPOSED t0 fast.
l0l. wake up ledy in the m0rning ..eat nice2 ledy.
den g0 sleep. wake up. i th0t abt darlingg, whud he is d0ing and all. miss him l0ads. next next week den can see him.
wah. can die lia0 l0ike this. s0 g0 scho0l ledy. feeling pr0ud that im fasting.
skali ad class, listenin t0 darlingg mp3. den i feel b0red and i want t0 chew sth in my m0uth.
guess whud i did. i p0pped ment0s in my m0uth. den chew chew chew, s0 happy ledy. l0l.
s0, i br0ke my fast after 3 hrs 0f fasting. whud de hell.im s0 lame. l0l.
s0 like dat ledy,br0te chewing gum, s0 happy2 chew the gum and MaySze gimme shuweet. den i eat shuweet. l0l. im such a bad grrl. tmr dunn0 wan t0 fast an0t. see furst.
den justie recess i eat burger. w0arh! nice sia. o0h la la!
s0 dats the bad thing i did t0day. actually deres m0re la, like asking fauzee t0 shuddap and pissing him off. uh, whud de hell. i dun care~ he is jus freaking..irritating.
and today is quite fun c0s hisyam sat behind me. s0 u n0e, he is crapping..making all s0rt of j0kes until kena sc0lded. me os0 lei! l0l.but indirect sc0lding. ged whud i mean laa!
den physics less0n 0ready feel sleepy sleepy. s0 i slept f0r awhile and heck, kena caught. l0l. c0s mr.indra is finding the 0ther grrl whu is os0 limping weeks ag0..well, i did limped weeks ag0 bec0s of my t0e..den he is finding and the limping grrl is me and summ0re i sleeping.
den the class lo0k ad me. i 0ready oh shit but i act co0l. l0l. open eyes see2 den just lie d0wn 0n the table.
[IM HUNGRYY!!]
i l0ve my darlingg al0t. i heart my darlingg al0t.
s0 justie i made a c0nclusi0n, im n0t g0ing t0 f0rce him t0 d0 whudever things he d0nt want t0 d0.
eg: g0ing t0 the zo0. and the merli0n.
im n0t g0ing t0 stick with him 24/7.
eg: everyday see him, talk to him on ph0ne.
im n0t g0ing t0 bet my life 0n him.
eg: put friends t0tally aside,pri0r him.
im n0t g0ing t0 expect him t0 be there f0r me ALWAYS.
eg: -n0 example!- l0l.
y0u want t0 n0e why? i tell y0u why.
f0rcing him t0 d0 things he dun want will end up in a misunderstanding and he w0nt like being with me.
sticking with him 24/7 will make him be b0red 0ff me easily and will be sick and tired 0f my cutesy face and he will want anader fresh new face t0 lo0k ad. it os0 n0 fun c0s we dun haf t0 miss each 0ther.
im n0t g0ing t0 bet my life 0n him c0s anything c0uld happen t0 him anytime anywhere. if i put my entire 0n him and if s0mething happens t0 him..i will be in a difficult situati0n c0s all the while depend t0tally 0n him.
im n0t g0ing t0 expect him t0 be there f0r me always bc0s im an em0 sp0il brat and i d0 weird/stupid things anywhere,anytime,anyh0w.im very impatient and things ged 0n my nerves easily..s0 evrytime i nid t0 c0mplain t0 him but whud de heck. he c0uldnt be there f0r me always. he needs time with his frends. with his family. with himself. and when i c0mplain, i will really c0mplain and he c0uldnt be listening t0 me all day l0ng..c0s im sp0ilt!!
its n0t like im expecting l0w standards f0r 0ur relati0nship but ad the same time i cant put high standards..as i said, anything can happen anytime. den when i put high expectati0ns..everything w0uld be crushed and i will be s0 s0 s0 sad! geddit? x)
s0 darlingg, if y0u read this.. dun think i dun lurve y0u 0r whudever crapp. just understand me la, im styll picking myself up fr0m the past. but ey, i rili mean it when i say i lurve y0u s0 much! g0wsh. mushy.
damn. l0l. i tell u whud just happen.i t0ld my c0usin, a 16 yr 0ld b0y ab0ut whud i did in class.den he say "rabak ar kau ena" den he os0 say his frendss g0t sm0ke just n0w.. rili cann0t tahan ledy. l0l. suckers. and he os0 admit he g0t eat justie. g0wsh. s0 we saw sweet 0n my sis bed.. den we eat ar, n0b0dy in ro0m..0ny us. den skali his m0ther came in and im trying t0 hide the sweet under my t0ngue, den im trying t0 talk naturally. l0l! sucker. my c0usin was lucky, he g0t thr0ugh!!his m0m dunn0 he g0t sweet in his m0uth. den she g0 out of the ro0m.. im s0..feeling shitty and s0 is my c0usin.sh0cked . i lied t0 her during puase m0nth. the evil is n0t with me. the evil IS me. l0l.
im a stupid sucker wh0 dunn0 h0w t0 lie.
hahahar! well, i can lie. but den n0t convincingly.
hehs.
b0d0h la aku ni!
m0m dunn0 ab0ut this h0pe she d0esnt. heh.
w0key..i think this is ab0ut it t0day.
update t0night. i think darlingg is studying. he SHOULD AND MUST study.

end here~
{astoria*grrl}
Lynnie<3R-2-K ALOT!

xmayxlynx fell.int0.pits @ Thursday, October 21, 2004 03:20 p.m.

x/ShouldIBiteMyTongueUntilBloodSoaksMyShirt

al0r!
its me! Lynnie!
0k s0, wellie, MaySze c0mp is 0n the d0wn&is getting fixed.
g0t back results t0day, 0nly passed my language papers.
but haben ged maths,but whudda hell. g0nna fail os0 whud.
g0 t0 jb tadi..bl0wn away by this super hunk ad dere. he's a sg'an w0key! g0wsh. he is s0 g0rge0us. sumh0w turned and saw him, if never turn, never see him la.
den at sg..,tgh walking..den saw this malay guy wearing pink. s0 attention-seeker. s0 i lo0ked ad him. fav kaler mah~ den he smiled ad me. lol. kinda sh0cked s0 n0 reacti0n. i wunt smile t0 him back ar even if im n0t sh0cked.
b0ught a pink STARRY watch..my watch is like fading its c0l0r..tak style. s0 i b0ught this 0ne.. and i b0ught a pink fred perry shirt. h0t pink tau! l0ls.
s0 thats my st0ry but mat j0h0rs keep lo0king ad me th0 i disguised my "cute" face with my ugly specs s0 i lo0k ugly. that 0ne os0 they wan t0 see. whud sia.
okay s0 back t0 darlingg.. i miss him al0t t0day and MCR s0ng, Helena, makes me remind 0f him.
and i was falling in lurv with the s0ng like a bad star falling faster d0wn t0 it..
den ad sg wdlands cust0m...my m0m was hurrying me t0 ged the earpiece off my ears and put inside bag. den hurry2, i pressed all kinds 0f butt0ns.. last2 ACCIDENTALLY delete the Helena song and recorded a 8 secs atmos.
im oready like oh shit!! when i disc0ver it..
in taxi..den the MCR-im not okay was supp0sedly t0 be n0.5 den suddenly came up as n0.4.. im oready cursing and swearing..i h0pe darlingg understand it. thats h0w clumsy i am ad tymes.. x(
i l0ve u i l0ve u i l0ve u darlingg!!
muackxx! miss him s0 much but i dun wan t0 meet him until next week. c0s i rili2 want him t0 study! he MUST study!
read his blog.. its cute and funny post. he's s0 cute. i l0ve him s0 much.

end here~
{astoria*grrl}
asToria<3R-2-K

xmayxlynx fell.int0.pits @ Wednesday, October 20, 2004 08:25 p.m.

x/HeMeanSoMuchToMe~!

al0r. its me AGAIN. 0kay, s0..im w0ndering wher the hell and which c0rner 0n earth i ged my bf. i feel s0 lucky! he is s0 shuweet and t0uching. he's my everything! read his new p0st. g0wsh. tried s0 hard t0 h0ld back my tears. he mean s0 much t0 me.. x) lurve u darlingg!!
end here~
{astoria*grrl}

xmayxlynx fell.int0.pits @ Tuesday, October 19, 2004 09:44 p.m.

x/LikeABadStarImFallingFasterDownToYou

al0r.
this is Lynnie p0sting. [WHUD HAPPEN T0 MAYSZE!!]
this m0rnin wen t0 sch,g0t the r0cket/parachute thing.
wo0t. kinda fun ley.. launching 0f r0ckets/parachute.
but nid t0 m0dify l0ads 0f tymes seh.
everyb0dy was wet..and anticipating.
s0me funny scenes th0, but i sat under the shelter hearing Najib's discman. wo0t. rnb/hiph0p s0ngs.
den after that, went 0ut of sch, Najib ask me al0ng t0 f0ll0w dem fer awhile t0 find things f0r the r0cket.
s0 i did and they went in and 0ut of sh0ps with empty hands. l0l. waste tyme 0ny.
den g0t this chupachups machine u n0e. 50sen. ask Najib f0r 50 cents, he 0pen his wallet g0t 50 d0llar n0te.
kinda sh0cked. but m0re sh0cking when he gif me 10cents 0ny den ask me ask the rest f0r 10cents each.
ask..ask..ask..they all n0 m0ney c0s fasting mah~
in the end gif Najib his 10cents back. n0 use lia0x! after that g0 separate ways and went t0 MRT stati0n w/ Sharezan.
Baba went h0me and i g0 0n my way t0 meet darlingg.
s0 tired/sleepy in the MRT. c0s of my brudder, cry all night. n0 peace t0 sleep!
i reach early, s0 g0 t0ilet,igs heaven t0 see the lava lamp & happy h0use t0 lo0k2.
g0wsh. lava lamp. been wanting that f0r years..but to0 expensive lia0x. after that g0 see the sign, darlingg reach ledy.
s0 happy t0 meet him. miss him s0 much!
den g0 t0 esp lib,since my t0e kinda 0key ledy and im wearing my scho0l sh0es, i can walk fast2.
s0 3 cheers f0r sweet revenge, i left him behind. l0l.
but den i waited f0r him os0 la..so pityful. summ0re lurve him s0 much.
den g0 esp, sit2. den walk2 fast 0ut of esp. he grabbed my hand. l0l. s0 sh0cked!! kheex.
want t0 g0 MERLI0N but raining halfway. sucks la! den in the end g0 wher? g0 bo0n lay!! far sial.
g0 bo0n lay, dunn0 wher t0 g0..g0 t0 darlingg h0me! okey, his m0m's h0me.
h0me s0 nice s0 c0sy. i w0uld like t0 have it! but weird thing, the kitchen is right inside 0f the h0use. l0l.
but co0l thing.. evrything is in 0rder and neat. and the lapt0p place is s0 co0l. jus the place ive been wanting. sit d0wn 0n the flo0r with the c0mp.
darlingg giv me c0cac0la and mars t0 eat.
hehs, im n0t fasting againn! x)
sit and watch MTV. viva la bam eh the sh0w? veli farnie lia0!co0l a mund0 sh0w but kinda evil! bwahahaha!
and meantime, kp02 see whud darlingg d0ing ad the c0mputer.. x)
his p0st ab0ut us was rili2 shuweet seh. just n0w read ad his h0me, was on the VERGE OF TEARS but dun wan s0 em0. tahan 0ny.
wellie, i did sth wr0ng. c0s i b0rr0wed his mp3. and i 0nly g0t 8 stati0ns left while he g0t m0re than 10 stati0ns t0 g0. i only realised it after he left me al0ne in the MRT. den i was already feelin s0 d0wn, s0 sinful, s0 wr0ngful, s0 un-best.
s0 he br0ught the MCR cd. i 0ny remembered i f0rg0t t0 remind him when i reached kallang. x(
during the leaving part, he kept asking me, any last w0rds t0 say, any last w0rds t0 say, any last w0rds t0 say.
i said n0,n0,n0. but inside yes,yes,yes.
i l0ve y0u, i l0ve y0u,i l0ve y0u,i l0ve y0u,i l0ve y0u,i l0ve y0u, i l0ve y0u, i l0ve y0u, i l0ve y0u, i l0ve y0u!
i s0 wanted t0 tell him that but im shy and summ0re many pe0ple. x( s0rry.

Letters t0 Mr.B:
i l0ve y0u, i l0ve y0u,i l0ve y0u,i l0ve y0u,i l0ve y0u,i l0ve y0u, i l0ve y0u, i l0ve y0u, i l0ve y0u, i l0ve y0u, i l0ve y0u, i l0ve y0u,i l0ve y0u,i l0ve y0u,i l0ve y0u,i l0ve y0u, i l0ve y0u, i l0ve y0u, i l0ve y0u, i l0ve y0u, i l0ve y0u, i l0ve y0u,i l0ve y0u,i l0ve y0u,i l0ve y0u,i l0ve y0u, i l0ve y0u, i l0ve y0u, i l0ve y0u, i l0ve y0u, i l0ve y0u, i l0ve y0u,i l0ve y0u,i l0ve y0u,i l0ve y0u,i l0ve y0u, i l0ve y0u, i l0ve y0u, i l0ve y0u, i l0ve y0u! and i n0e u l0ve me to0.
c0s i w0nt let y0u g0, i lurve y0u, i miss y0u s0.
y0u will never be replaced, i miss y0u, i lurve y0u s0.

end here~
{astoria*grrl}
<3sH I M.

xmayxlynx fell.int0.pits @ Tuesday, October 19, 2004 07:46 p.m.

x/YouCouldBeMyUnintended

0kay pe0ple..
this is Lynnie p0sting again&again and agai n
dun ged sh0cked theres 0nly 0ne p0st.
g0 t0 the archive t0 read the p0sts bef0re this day.
dat is the *18/10/04*
heart ya'all!
-Lynnie

xmayxlynx fell.int0.pits @ Monday, October 18, 2004 04:02 p.m.